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So I've been quiet lately. Spending alot of time on Facebook games so that I don't actually have to think about anything except dominating that particular game. The domination thing seems to be working so far. Things have been happening in RL and I just needed to unwind from it.
***Commencing brain dump***
There has been talk at work about me potentially moving into a position with more responsibility. I'm hesitant for quite a few reasons although if offered I would take it. I don't back down from challenges.
1.) I'm the new kid on the block with this team. Yes it's been almost a year now but 3 mos of that I was on leave. I'm sure there will be backlash and a view of favoritism.
2.) Machinations and more machinations. My former supervisor in the department wants me to take on this new role because he thinks I can do it and to further his views of how he thinks the dept should run. The current boss wants me to take on this role because he believes I can do it but also to further his views on how he thinks the dept should run. At this stage I do not know the viewpoints oppose or not and it's all very hush hush so no one knows that the other one is talking to me.
3.) It's a management position and damnit, I walked away from my last one for a reason. Yes this one probably won't be quite as HR filled... actually it may very well be. *sigh*
4.) I don't know if I can do it and do it well. This is my biggest hang up right now. I can handle the politics but apparently my self esteems kicks my ass every time. I spoke to one guy at work that I trust to tell it to me straight no matter what. He did and I feel a bit better about it. Not a whole lot but a little bit.
Ultimately I'll still take it, it just scares me a bit.
***Ends brain dump***
Maybe when it's all over I'll start posting a bit more.
***Commencing brain dump***
There has been talk at work about me potentially moving into a position with more responsibility. I'm hesitant for quite a few reasons although if offered I would take it. I don't back down from challenges.
1.) I'm the new kid on the block with this team. Yes it's been almost a year now but 3 mos of that I was on leave. I'm sure there will be backlash and a view of favoritism.
2.) Machinations and more machinations. My former supervisor in the department wants me to take on this new role because he thinks I can do it and to further his views of how he thinks the dept should run. The current boss wants me to take on this role because he believes I can do it but also to further his views on how he thinks the dept should run. At this stage I do not know the viewpoints oppose or not and it's all very hush hush so no one knows that the other one is talking to me.
3.) It's a management position and damnit, I walked away from my last one for a reason. Yes this one probably won't be quite as HR filled... actually it may very well be. *sigh*
4.) I don't know if I can do it and do it well. This is my biggest hang up right now. I can handle the politics but apparently my self esteems kicks my ass every time. I spoke to one guy at work that I trust to tell it to me straight no matter what. He did and I feel a bit better about it. Not a whole lot but a little bit.
Ultimately I'll still take it, it just scares me a bit.
***Ends brain dump***
Maybe when it's all over I'll start posting a bit more.