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So last night i *hung out* with the Camille, she's leaving for guatamala on wednesday so i went shopping with her and tried to help her organize her mind. We also got crepes with Em (manic Em) who's back in town for a month. we went back to Camille's around 11 and she kind of cleaned and i sort of just followed her around, she showed me pictures of tanya her new obsession and apologized and thanked me stuff. We smoked a joint with Abe's sister (who came over very briefly) and then went to bed. i felt so wierd, and i felt everything like i was fucking sinking. i woke up every hour and had these crazy surreal dreams that were paralleling what was going on in my head and what was really happening so every time i woke up i had no fucking clue what was going on but i was so completely aware of her next to me. i remember her telling me to move and then losing my blanket, the cat being obnoxious and the grumpiness this morning. i wonder if ill see her before wednesday because she wont be back til august. nothing happened at all, but i kept thinking about her handwriting exactly like Ally's and her paintings everywhere, and how badly i wanted to change my name and have her stick around longer so we could be friends better.