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I am such an idiot.
I don't know what to do. I didn't know what to do. I feel like a moron.
Last night a beautiful girl calls me and all but says that she likes me. What do I do? I tell her to be careful of the likes of me, that I am overly flirtatious (all true). I don't know what it is about me at those moments, but I can't say anything good. And when I say beautiful I am talking inside and out. (Not mentioning names here because someone of you at least know her, but I can't help giving a partial description.) Funny, outgoing, enjoys the outdoors--Christian with good theology but definitly not the "Master's Girl."
I have a problem?
What's my problem? I am such an idiot. She is a girl any guy in their right mind should be after, and I can't reciprocate, even have the least feeling for (more than friends, you know). I'll flirt though, Oh how I'll flirt. That's what got her half saying things in the first place, I'll bet.
Theology Card.
Some might be saying to me "don't worry, It's God sayomg upi shouldn't be together!" But is it? Or is it me being an idiot with what God has given me? I am sure the foolish servant felt it good to put the talent in the ground--But he was still punished for being an idiot.
What's wrong with her? Nothing. What's wrong with me? What's not?
Am I too romantic? Set up on my high horse with my stellar ideals (no matter how much I think I have only two stipulations it seems I have more) that no one could possibly match? Am I so busy looking for love at first sight or the old best friend from no where that I can't see what is in front of me?
Yes. I do belive that. I wish I didn't but I do. I wish there was some way I wasn't an idiot but I am. (okay I'll try to stop calling myself that so you wont get any more annoyed.) God help me, I am. And on top of that I enjoy the game--flirting back as someone flirts with me. I can care for them, want to get to know them, enjoy their company and still screw them over by flirting and making them think I like them when I don't. Someone should have warned her. I tried tonight but me trying just brings it all to head.
Girls!! I am a flirt. Don't trust me when I joke about how pretty you are (I will think that true but it still wont mean anything more than friends) or about running off to Vegas or seeing the world together. I Am a Flirt. And the whole world should know it so I wont cause so much stupid trouble. I can think you are beautiful, enjoy your company think you are intelligent and still pass you by--after of course being flirtatous enough to probably make you think I like you.
There I said it...
I know why. At least some basic causes. Friends and family. My family teases to show affection. We'll tease about the good and the bad, and enjoy the laugh. Teasing is very similar to flirting and are one and the same in many cases--the only difference is the point of view. And some of my friends tease too. We enjoy the banter, and with some lady friends it becomes the same as flirting. I enjoy the affection, the banter. I slip into it naturally. I need to know how to keep it off with people that I need to.
I think that is enough ranting for now.
**Note. This post has been left anonomous to protect the guilty. Any innocent that were also protected occours as a coincidence and therefore the hearing of this story by the other side is not the fault of the person posting this.
I don't know what to do. I didn't know what to do. I feel like a moron.
Last night a beautiful girl calls me and all but says that she likes me. What do I do? I tell her to be careful of the likes of me, that I am overly flirtatious (all true). I don't know what it is about me at those moments, but I can't say anything good. And when I say beautiful I am talking inside and out. (Not mentioning names here because someone of you at least know her, but I can't help giving a partial description.) Funny, outgoing, enjoys the outdoors--Christian with good theology but definitly not the "Master's Girl."
I have a problem?
What's my problem? I am such an idiot. She is a girl any guy in their right mind should be after, and I can't reciprocate, even have the least feeling for (more than friends, you know). I'll flirt though, Oh how I'll flirt. That's what got her half saying things in the first place, I'll bet.
Theology Card.
Some might be saying to me "don't worry, It's God sayomg upi shouldn't be together!" But is it? Or is it me being an idiot with what God has given me? I am sure the foolish servant felt it good to put the talent in the ground--But he was still punished for being an idiot.
What's wrong with her? Nothing. What's wrong with me? What's not?
Am I too romantic? Set up on my high horse with my stellar ideals (no matter how much I think I have only two stipulations it seems I have more) that no one could possibly match? Am I so busy looking for love at first sight or the old best friend from no where that I can't see what is in front of me?
Yes. I do belive that. I wish I didn't but I do. I wish there was some way I wasn't an idiot but I am. (okay I'll try to stop calling myself that so you wont get any more annoyed.) God help me, I am. And on top of that I enjoy the game--flirting back as someone flirts with me. I can care for them, want to get to know them, enjoy their company and still screw them over by flirting and making them think I like them when I don't. Someone should have warned her. I tried tonight but me trying just brings it all to head.
Girls!! I am a flirt. Don't trust me when I joke about how pretty you are (I will think that true but it still wont mean anything more than friends) or about running off to Vegas or seeing the world together. I Am a Flirt. And the whole world should know it so I wont cause so much stupid trouble. I can think you are beautiful, enjoy your company think you are intelligent and still pass you by--after of course being flirtatous enough to probably make you think I like you.
There I said it...
I know why. At least some basic causes. Friends and family. My family teases to show affection. We'll tease about the good and the bad, and enjoy the laugh. Teasing is very similar to flirting and are one and the same in many cases--the only difference is the point of view. And some of my friends tease too. We enjoy the banter, and with some lady friends it becomes the same as flirting. I enjoy the affection, the banter. I slip into it naturally. I need to know how to keep it off with people that I need to.
I think that is enough ranting for now.
**Note. This post has been left anonomous to protect the guilty. Any innocent that were also protected occours as a coincidence and therefore the hearing of this story by the other side is not the fault of the person posting this.