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God i want to throw up, i feel like fucking shit. Fuck man Roy doesnt stfu, he fuckings say that ashii forgave him so i should just shut up. WELL WHEN HIM AND MARU THOUGHT I CALLED JON AN ASS HOLE AND I DIDNT AND ASHII WASNT MAD AT ME AND BLEIEVED THAT I DIDNT HE DIDNT BELIEVE ME. notice i didnt say forgive, because you forgive someone when they do something wrong and i didnt do anything wrong. Ashii has known me for less time then Roy and Maru, and she knew ME more then they did, she knew that if i had called him an ass hole i wouldnt have cared. YEAH I CURSED AT ROY I DONT GIVE A FUCK HE DESERVED IT THAT FUCKING ASS. Btw Roy people who cut arent cowards you ignorant jack ass, they cut because it is something they can control, they cant control their emtions and that is a pain that the decided when they feel it, they want the pain they cut and it hurts. I do know want to know how i know, BECAUSE I HAVE WANTED TO CUT BEFORE, AND I HAVE WANTEDT O EAT COMFORT FOOD BEFORE (another thing that is about control),AND I DID MAKE MYSELF THROW UP, AND I HAVE WANTED TO STOP EATING AND JUST LOCK MYSELF IN THE ROOM AND DIE (antother control thing). THE MOMENTS THAT ARE IN COMMON IS THAT I WANT TO DO IT WHEN I GET GROUNDED AND I CANT TALK TO MY MOM BECAUSE SHE IS TAKING MY STEP DADS SIDE (UNCONTROLABLE), WHEN ALL OF YOU JACK ASSES ARE MAD AT ME (UNCONTROABLE), WHEN MOE WROTE ME AN EMAIL TELLING ME THAT HE WAS GOING TO GO BACK TO STEALING (I COULDNT STOP HIM). I have i dont know how many friends who cut and i talk to them about and ALL OF THEM TELL ME IT IS BECAUSE THEY CAN CONTROL IT. It is a psychological thing smart one so it isnt because they are cowards, trying to end your life is a cowardice act not trying to control your life.