So Tired
Me and my mom got into a huge fight, every time i think about it i start crying. i started dating this guy, didnt last long, turns out he is either cheating on me or his friends were just being fuck heads. either way i dont want to deal with it. Marus birthday just passed, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARGGIE!!! thats the only thing that has been good for me lately, even when i went out with Roy and Stephen, i wasnt happy. I mean i tried to be, and they did help alot, like alot alot! But i wasnt happy, i thank them for helping me. Now i regret seeing them those days, roy thinks i used him in some evil plan, or some shit like that bc when they were over i was saying how i plan everything. Also i was tlaking about how everything that happened with Stephen i told him WORD FOR WORD that it was going to happen and how it was freaky. I dont try to fucking hurt people.
I have had about 5 emotional break downs all within the span of 4 days. I hate this, and how life works, i saw my dad and i was fighting with him the whole time basically. 3 days of my life wasted, but Marggies birthday saved me. I had fun at her birthday and it got me away from my dad, but even that had bad points. I felt left out alot, it wasnt Marggies fault i just wanted to her to have fun thats what mattered. After i told her i felt kinda left out i started feeling more comfortable and things got better. I felt like shit bc i kinda got Ashii in trouble >< i felt really bad. Maru got into a fight with her mom bc of my mom.
When Maru called and said i couldnt go to her party i had an emotional break down but i supressed it. I talked to her mom and i guess things are okay now, but i am tired of all the fighting and crying and bull shit. everything just sucks right now.
I have had about 5 emotional break downs all within the span of 4 days. I hate this, and how life works, i saw my dad and i was fighting with him the whole time basically. 3 days of my life wasted, but Marggies birthday saved me. I had fun at her birthday and it got me away from my dad, but even that had bad points. I felt left out alot, it wasnt Marggies fault i just wanted to her to have fun thats what mattered. After i told her i felt kinda left out i started feeling more comfortable and things got better. I felt like shit bc i kinda got Ashii in trouble >< i felt really bad. Maru got into a fight with her mom bc of my mom.
When Maru called and said i couldnt go to her party i had an emotional break down but i supressed it. I talked to her mom and i guess things are okay now, but i am tired of all the fighting and crying and bull shit. everything just sucks right now.