ARGGGGGGG *SWOONS* ><;; *sticks tongue out*
so much bull shit is happening friends are fighting, i am allergic to my dogs to the point where my throat is closing up, i am failing my math class with like a .48 (HOW THE FUCK?!?!?!?!)and i dont seem to care. i am happy and nothing is stoping this happiness from washing over me, as i write this my throat is buring bc of my allergic reaction and it hurts to swollow and even breathe.
Yet i am so happy bc some times ignorance is bliss. and even when i am not longer ignorant it will still be bliss for the simple fact... that i know that i can live and now wonder constantly and i can just be. love just is it is being happy and sad all at the same time it is a roller coaster of emotions out side of emotions, love causes emotions but is not an emotion its self. love is unstopable and ireplacable and irrasitable. It is the knowlegde of how scary it can be to spend your whole life with someone and still allowing yourself to take that leap. never sat forever bc time does not exist it is all in the mind so forever is over when some decideds to end it. Life is more important then time will ever be. I am willing to spend my life like this, but then again i am a child who doesnt know how scary it can all be.
I know more then some think, and i am willing to learn *sits down* i am an adept pupil and i will learn if what you teach is actually worth the lesson. i want to know i need to know everything that life can teach and one day... i will know. No matter who you are, how old you are, wether or not you have a job EVERYONE can love everyone can BE IN love .... i wish the one person who needs to see this could see it... but i am to chicken to give this to him...... that would include him seeing some poems ... that i dont particularly want him to see. i guess i am just a scared little girl when it all come down to it.
Yet i am so happy bc some times ignorance is bliss. and even when i am not longer ignorant it will still be bliss for the simple fact... that i know that i can live and now wonder constantly and i can just be. love just is it is being happy and sad all at the same time it is a roller coaster of emotions out side of emotions, love causes emotions but is not an emotion its self. love is unstopable and ireplacable and irrasitable. It is the knowlegde of how scary it can be to spend your whole life with someone and still allowing yourself to take that leap. never sat forever bc time does not exist it is all in the mind so forever is over when some decideds to end it. Life is more important then time will ever be. I am willing to spend my life like this, but then again i am a child who doesnt know how scary it can all be.
I know more then some think, and i am willing to learn *sits down* i am an adept pupil and i will learn if what you teach is actually worth the lesson. i want to know i need to know everything that life can teach and one day... i will know. No matter who you are, how old you are, wether or not you have a job EVERYONE can love everyone can BE IN love .... i wish the one person who needs to see this could see it... but i am to chicken to give this to him...... that would include him seeing some poems ... that i dont particularly want him to see. i guess i am just a scared little girl when it all come down to it.