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OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG I FEEL SO WEIRD, I FEEL SOOOOOOO WEIRD!!!!! I dont know what the fuck is wrong with me, do you know?!?!?!?!?!?! if so please tell me bc like arggg, i have been so emo the past couple of days but emo in an apathetic way. i care so much and so little, i fear this. i have become stronger, a couple of days ago i had an emotional break down in school and i was able to stop it for the first time i was able to stop my body from shaking and able to hold in the tears and the thoughts of complete misery. i was able to just .... let it go. as i wrote it flew through my fingers and onto the paper and as the words appeared on the paper my hand steadied. things are weird and i cant talk about them here bc ...... some people arent meant to see what i need to type. my world has been turned upside down and all i can think about now is getting what i had back, getting back the feeling i had. i am not talking about a relationship with a bf or something i am talking about the way i was and saw things ....i still see things the same but it feels different and i dont want it to be different i want to be me. man there are so many things i want i dont know what to do to get it.... i dont want this change.