Im just big fucking peachy bastard
Not to sure what to do just a little pissed at myself that i am such a fucking idiot. I used to think I didn't like being around people now i know i can't stand being around myself. I guess its a good thing i don't believe in suicide cause i wouldn't be here right now. Life fucking blows. not to sure what else to say. can't figure out what to do with my life both love and job wise. I love ashley and i want to be with her but my mind keeps saying that I am to young to to be in a seroius relationship so i have decided to say fuck it and not listen to my mind for once. I was hoping to spend some time with her today but instead she is going out to dinner with some friends. See what happens when i wanna do something with anyone. life just likes to fuck with me hardcore. Its always something in my life. now i know how ashley feels. wanting someone to talk to or be around when I am about to snap and no one being around. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. A LITTLE BETTER BUT NOT MUCH. Life fucking blows giant sweaty donkey balls. I think i just need to accept that i am going nowhere with my life and just curl up in a ball and just die. everyone will forget about me eventually. If i don't call ya'll don't worry about me im still alive.