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So,
Douglas and I are done. It's really over with this time. If he wants me back I just can't do it this time.Yeah I loved him, and no, I don't regret at all anything that had to deal with the relationship. I just wish things could work out, but they can't. He needs something i can't give him. And I don't know what that is. fun, I guess. I must be lame.
I need someone to talk to, but I don't know who to trust anymore. Everyone talks so much crap, I'd rather just keep this to myself this time. As usual. I wish I felt like I had more people on my side. Of course my best friend will hear about this, but...aye. I scroll through my buddy list...no one. Lisa's away. I just don't know why I thought things would be different this time. I believed him. I'm so dumb. The sad thing is, if he said he wanted me back, I'd run back in a second, and I don't know why. Well, I do know why.
Senior year sucks. I remember sitting around with my friends on several occasions, talking about how great everything was going to be when we were seniors. I hate it. I wish I never would have let relationships go. Things used to be so great. Carefree.
I'm just ready for Central. I need an escape. a hug. a friend. a something.
Just letting everyone know, random people are getting hugs tomorrow. I just need lots, so you might be a victim.
I'm sorry. I really don't mean for you to all take pity on me. I don't want you to. I just needed to let this out. Even though this wasn't the half of it.