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I'm thinking about quitting university.
I was just going to leave this at that, but thought it would probably require an explanation and it wouldn't hurt to ask for opinions.
Basically, since late last week I've been super stressed out over assignments. I'm the type of person, when confronted with something I can't do, instead of just trying, I get overwhelmed and I can't control my breathing, my heart races and I end up crying. This has been happening lately.
After a long talk with my sister, she asked me why I was worrying over these things so much, and I explained, well this is my degree and she asked, "Isn't one of these assignments for the class you hate?" I said yes and then went on a giant explanation about why it is entirely pointless and has absolutely no relevance to me or my future career. She then asked me, "So why are you doing this again?" And I didn't know what else to say except, "Well, this is my degree."
We then had a big conversation about what am I really doing this for. I've had to tailor my degree to what I want to do, but a lot of the core subjects I'm doing and some of the ones aren't living up to expectations so when am I really going to use all this? What does a Bachelor of Creative Industries - Interdisciplinary really say to employers? Sure, I've done some useful things, and a lot of the things I enjoyed but they don't really have any point. My sister suggested going back to JMC Academy and getting a Diploma of Music Business and I'm actually really considering it. It certainly says more than, "Oh, I have a degree in which I studied a variety of things but never really got too in-depth in anything."
If I were to quit, I could perhaps apply for a mid-year intake and at least I know what I'd be learning would be of some use. At the very least in the field of which I want to work. I mean, I'm ending up crying over things I don't even need to know. I know I am good at business. I was the top of my class. I know I can do this, but I'm studying things I'm not good at. I'm being forced to learn things that although I might find interesting, they certainly don't play to my strengths or have any value to my future. Even if JMC turned out to be a complete waste of time, I will have only wasted a year of my life and then I might have the courage to just get out there. Right now, I'm feeling like I'm just as lost as I was at the beginning of last year.
I feel awful because it will have mean I have lost another year and a half of my life and thousands of dollars, and that seriously is something that would have me see out this course, but my sister made a valid point. I have wasted a lot of money and time, but wouldn't it be better to do the JMC course, than waste another year and a half doing something entirely pointless? And if JMC did turn out to be bad, I wouldn't be any worse off than I would be at uni financially and at least I would have tried. Also, this way, provided I can begin mid-year, I finish 6 months before I would have if I were to continue with uni.
I don't know what I should do really. Occasionally I entertain the idea of going to uni in Melbourne because they actually have a degree that is much more appropriate than mine, but then I'm back where I started and I have another 3 years ahead of me. Is it really worth it?
This is something I guess I need advice on and I really need to think hard about. I need to discuss it with my parents, but if I were to drop out of university, I feel just sick. The money, the time... I would consider it a failure on my behalf. But what is the alternative? Stick it out, come out with a degree of assorted skills but no real knowledge and look forward to countless more evenings spent crying because I'm trying to do something I know I'm not good at?
Opinions.
I was just going to leave this at that, but thought it would probably require an explanation and it wouldn't hurt to ask for opinions.
Basically, since late last week I've been super stressed out over assignments. I'm the type of person, when confronted with something I can't do, instead of just trying, I get overwhelmed and I can't control my breathing, my heart races and I end up crying. This has been happening lately.
After a long talk with my sister, she asked me why I was worrying over these things so much, and I explained, well this is my degree and she asked, "Isn't one of these assignments for the class you hate?" I said yes and then went on a giant explanation about why it is entirely pointless and has absolutely no relevance to me or my future career. She then asked me, "So why are you doing this again?" And I didn't know what else to say except, "Well, this is my degree."
We then had a big conversation about what am I really doing this for. I've had to tailor my degree to what I want to do, but a lot of the core subjects I'm doing and some of the ones aren't living up to expectations so when am I really going to use all this? What does a Bachelor of Creative Industries - Interdisciplinary really say to employers? Sure, I've done some useful things, and a lot of the things I enjoyed but they don't really have any point. My sister suggested going back to JMC Academy and getting a Diploma of Music Business and I'm actually really considering it. It certainly says more than, "Oh, I have a degree in which I studied a variety of things but never really got too in-depth in anything."
If I were to quit, I could perhaps apply for a mid-year intake and at least I know what I'd be learning would be of some use. At the very least in the field of which I want to work. I mean, I'm ending up crying over things I don't even need to know. I know I am good at business. I was the top of my class. I know I can do this, but I'm studying things I'm not good at. I'm being forced to learn things that although I might find interesting, they certainly don't play to my strengths or have any value to my future. Even if JMC turned out to be a complete waste of time, I will have only wasted a year of my life and then I might have the courage to just get out there. Right now, I'm feeling like I'm just as lost as I was at the beginning of last year.
I feel awful because it will have mean I have lost another year and a half of my life and thousands of dollars, and that seriously is something that would have me see out this course, but my sister made a valid point. I have wasted a lot of money and time, but wouldn't it be better to do the JMC course, than waste another year and a half doing something entirely pointless? And if JMC did turn out to be bad, I wouldn't be any worse off than I would be at uni financially and at least I would have tried. Also, this way, provided I can begin mid-year, I finish 6 months before I would have if I were to continue with uni.
I don't know what I should do really. Occasionally I entertain the idea of going to uni in Melbourne because they actually have a degree that is much more appropriate than mine, but then I'm back where I started and I have another 3 years ahead of me. Is it really worth it?
This is something I guess I need advice on and I really need to think hard about. I need to discuss it with my parents, but if I were to drop out of university, I feel just sick. The money, the time... I would consider it a failure on my behalf. But what is the alternative? Stick it out, come out with a degree of assorted skills but no real knowledge and look forward to countless more evenings spent crying because I'm trying to do something I know I'm not good at?
Opinions.