This is a bad day

[flake_ige]

I’m trembling right now. I’m not sure I could even cry if I wanted to. Maybe I want to,  then I could feel normal.
I feel delirious today… manic, uncomfortable, hysterical, and out of control. My perceptions don’t seem right, like I am looking at things… the street, the people and I don’t understand them.

When I woke up today I immediately made

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[ties_u_severed]

if this was just about a laptop i wouldnt be leaving...and i think its pretty ridiculous for you to think that im leaving over a fucking laptop...i dont have u as a friend anymore...i feel like i have no respect from you. i have nothing in common w/ you....i am gaining nothing from our friendship becuase you are so involved in whats going on in your life you forget that a friendship is GIVE AND take....not just take....im here to support you...always and i expect the same in return and im not getting that...i honestly am not getting anything out of being friends w/ you becuase you have made it clear to me time and time again that there are other people and other things that are more important to you right now than our friendship and if you want those other people and other things so badly then you can have them...but im not going to pay to live somewhere where i am getting NO respect....i specifically told you i wasnt comfortable w/ people i dont know coming and getting crazy at the apt but i cant TELL you not to have them over but i specifically told you I DO NOT WANT PEOPLE IN MY ROOM....no more than 12 hours later i get a call saying that not only were people in my room but they were drinking in my room and using my $2,000 laptop which procedded to get a drink spilled on it...and i have a hard time believing that you "didnt know what happened" becuase the minute i got home and saw a stack of still soaking wet post-its and bottle caps and when i OPENED MY COMPUTER AND THE SCREEN WAS WET!!! i just dont understand how you were confused about what happened...it bothers me even more so after the amount of bitching you did to me over something that wasnt even my fault and was $300....this was BLATANTLY your fault and it was a LITTLE more than $300....it was years of memories in pictures that i lost....it was ALL of the music that ive been adding to my computer since jr.high....it was homework and papers that i worked hard on to get ahead for this week that i will have to RE-DO! i refuse to live somewhere w/ someone who doesnt give a damn...i think you are making poor life choices and yes that is just my personal opinion but not that long ago that actually mattered to you....