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So, lastnight i go to cosmos with my last 50 dollars and want to play this kid for money...so i was like lets play for 30 and we do...i was up 4-2 and he came back and won 4-5...i had the game fucking won, but i had to fuck up, if i could have keep the cue ball on the table that night, i would of been so deadly, i was on but i couldnt keep the ball on the table, i think i put the cue ball in as much as i put the other balls in. So then i end up losing again for 10 and then i had to pay table time and i ended up losing all my money and now i'm flat broke and in need of 44 dollars by friday..yeah..so that kinda sucks...man ineed a job bad..but oh well...so tonight jenn is having a big party thing at her house,i think i going to make am apperance and then hopefully kiersten will come and pick me up or come. So next year i'm playing football and there is this mini camp next week after school, that will probably be interesting and kinda hard learning everything and what to do and the plays, i'm going to be so out of place the first couple of weeks until i get used to what i am doing and hopefully i will lose weight and get a lot stronger, becuase i'm a fat ass pretty much and i do nothing with myself. I cant wait until summer, its hopefully going to be amazing, i'm going to be able to hang out with kiersten all the time and pretty much just be a bum and in the summertime i'm hopefully going to start getting drum lessons again, which will be good so then i can become better....i've been thinking about like next year maybe even doing a play, i think it would be kinda fun and look good on a college app. and i'm going to need to like run a race or something and do something for the commutity (sp?)....i want to go to west chester but i doubt i'll be able to get into it, molly nasser didnt even get in...and shes a lot smarter than me.......So yesterday i almost shaved my arms, i thinking about it and then i was like ehh should i but then i didnt, i shaved my stomach and my arm pits and my arm pits feel weird but kinda cool and i'm going to need to lose tons of weight so i can not wear a shirt, and a tan...i want to get a tan and lose like 10 pounds for kiersten when she comes back from senior week...i have a feeling thats going to be the longest week of my life, but i want to do something for her when she comes home..like do something to her room or something, i'm going to have to talk to her mom about it..i dont even know what day she comes acbk from it...i think the 17th? or something but i need to get a life....so um i'm going to go and maybe shower or something later...and ohh yeah are you happy luaren i made a long journal entry just for you