only trickery and rhyme
i spent all day and evening finishing up my reading for my english class and haven't even begun my reading assignment for history. fuck it cuz i'm just too damn tired. maybe it's because i'm drained but i feel pretty down right now. something about my approaching birthday getting closer and closer is making me feel very lethargic for a few reasons but then i'm not sure if they are valid reasons. i hate the fact that i'm still damn near completely hung up on j. I don't want him to let me down on my birthday but i fear that no matter what i do, it's gonna happen. out of all of my friends, no matter how much distance there is between us now, he is the one person i would love to spend my birthday with but reality so harshly reminds me that i'll be lucky if he even remembers my birthday. i wish that i didn't let him get to me so much. nobody wants to read about this...
i've got nothing else to say.
i've got nothing else to say.