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things have gotten a little bit better. my father had his pace maker put in this past week and he's doing alright at home. the only thing left is for the surgeon that his doctor requested take my fathers case and perorm the operation. i've been staying as positive as possible and my spirits have been lifted up alot and it shows in our household since i'm the one in the family that cleans and takes care of the house.
starting to feel heart broken over what has gone down between d and myself. (haha before i typed his name, he text messaged me) so i can understand that he may or may not be gay and that if he is, he might not come out for a long time. if he really has the same feelings that i do then there's no telling of how long it will take him to express them or express his lack of feelings. i know i've got to move on because i can't stand still for too long. i'm sure i'll miss out on alot if i do so i'm not going to take that chance. it just sux that now my heart is starting to hurt over it. There are bigger problems that need to be taken care of and I am fully capable of hadling them although my emotional state is not as strong as i would like to have it be. with time i'm sure i'll be ok. i always am.
starting to feel heart broken over what has gone down between d and myself. (haha before i typed his name, he text messaged me) so i can understand that he may or may not be gay and that if he is, he might not come out for a long time. if he really has the same feelings that i do then there's no telling of how long it will take him to express them or express his lack of feelings. i know i've got to move on because i can't stand still for too long. i'm sure i'll miss out on alot if i do so i'm not going to take that chance. it just sux that now my heart is starting to hurt over it. There are bigger problems that need to be taken care of and I am fully capable of hadling them although my emotional state is not as strong as i would like to have it be. with time i'm sure i'll be ok. i always am.