soixante deux
As much as I want to have everything figured out; I'm not even close to being able to. I don't know why everything always seems to disappoint me or why I sometimes feel invincible. I don't know why so many things have to be so heart-breaking or why I can never focus on what I'm doing the moment I'm doing it. I don't know why I get more glares than I do 'good mornings'. I don't know why I'm never satisfied or why I'm always looking for something to help me understand. I don't know why people are so self-centered and unappreciative.I don't know when to say the right thing or when the joke is over. I don't know why everything has to be so complicated and hard to reach. I don't know why it's easier to lose a best friend than it is to gain one. I don't know why everything seems so overwhelming once I actually open my eyes and look at it. I've learned that no matter how many times I feel like I want to scream, how many people repeatedly let me down, or how many times I want to just lay in my bed all day and sleep the bad stuff away; it all happens for a reason. It gives me the motivation to be the complete opposite of everything and everyone that causes me to have so much trouble figuring it all out. I want to make everything simple. I want to make a difference in the world and the only way to do that, in my opinion, is to be the person I wish I met more of. I try my hardest to be the person that is going to make your day and show you that I love you, and I'm determined to get better at it.