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I just had a nice talk with my dad... and I feel a lot better about, well, life. I know I'm not going to get the marks on these exams necessary to get me into thesis in fourth year, but I will FOR SURE be able to get into seminar courses... which would allow me to graduate with my degree, but I'd have absolutely no shot at grad school. My dad just reassured me that this wasn't the worst thing in the world. YAY. now I just have to tell my mum... ikes. that will be awkward.
Basically, at this point, I'm going to pass my exams with as good a mark as possible, hope for over 75% average, but if I can't do that, then pray for over 70% average... eventually graduate in 4 years (I really couldn't handle a 5th year), move to Germany and work as a tour guide for a year... or two. I KNOW that I could get a job as a tour guide, seeing as I will be able to speak three languages fluently by that point. I also plan on learning bassoon, and then I think I'll go back to school in bassoon performance, and *hopefully* get a carreer in music. oh man, I really started down the wrong path out of high school. I guess it's for the best, though, that I have this crisis of identity now, rather than.. you know... in grad school, should I make it.
*sob* the idea of breaking this to mother isn't good. I'm sure she'll understand, although she might be a bit annoyed that I wasted all that money on four years of school in a program that will do nothing for me in the future.
Step-dad won't be so easy to convince. I think he's got his heart set on another "child" having a PhD... but it's really not happening. University just isn't working for me, at least not psyc.
sigh
Just. Have. To. Make. It. Through. These. Exams.
Basically, at this point, I'm going to pass my exams with as good a mark as possible, hope for over 75% average, but if I can't do that, then pray for over 70% average... eventually graduate in 4 years (I really couldn't handle a 5th year), move to Germany and work as a tour guide for a year... or two. I KNOW that I could get a job as a tour guide, seeing as I will be able to speak three languages fluently by that point. I also plan on learning bassoon, and then I think I'll go back to school in bassoon performance, and *hopefully* get a carreer in music. oh man, I really started down the wrong path out of high school. I guess it's for the best, though, that I have this crisis of identity now, rather than.. you know... in grad school, should I make it.
*sob* the idea of breaking this to mother isn't good. I'm sure she'll understand, although she might be a bit annoyed that I wasted all that money on four years of school in a program that will do nothing for me in the future.
Step-dad won't be so easy to convince. I think he's got his heart set on another "child" having a PhD... but it's really not happening. University just isn't working for me, at least not psyc.
sigh
Just. Have. To. Make. It. Through. These. Exams.