Even the Best Fall Down Sometimes
I had a good day. Went to school, came home and planned out a few exams and schedules, played softball, talked with a new friend, sat in a hot tub and a sauna, got a back massage. I also had a bad day. It hurts to do what is probably the best thing for myself. Call me selfish, but even the best fall down sometimes. I have a headache right now. I miss her. I've been telling myself that I don't to make it hurt less. She was my best friend and I just did to her what I hated her for for doing to me. Doesn't sound healthy to me. I pray that I did what God would want me to do, I think I did- For my spiritual health and for my emotional health. On antoher note...I had a conversation with Chris today after the softball game. He and I were just talking and he asked me if I believed in the actual physical happening of Jesus being God's son and the resserection. I go day to day believing and then not and then yes again. I wish it seemed more real to me than just a history lesson that is just there in a text book. I've been praying and I will keep praying that some clarity comes for me. Pray for me.