006: Friends Cut.
Please remove me if I cut you. If you've been kept, you can see this entry. No hurt feelings, hopefully you'll understand why I made the cut. I'm getting so busy with school and track and don't have time to keep up with everyone, especially reading entries of people I don't even talk to or who don't talk to me. Basicallly, if we don't comment
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Hey. I don't even know how this situation became such a huge mess, but whatever. It happened and it sucked, but it happened. I would have dealt with this sooner but I couldn't because I had a bunch of family coming in last Thursday after work and I refused to focus my energy on something so negative when I should have been having the time of my life. Mckenna read to me what Kris posted on Twitter and I was bawling on the way home from work because that was probably THE most humiliating thing anyone's ever done to me, both offline and online. Maybe I took it too strongly but you know what, it was wrong and I stand firmly behind that notion. Plus, I found it completely hypocritical that Kris claimed I was such a bad friend, when, in reality, you've been bitching about me/our friendship behind my back to Kris when you could have just messaged me on MSN and talked to ME personally about it. It's really disappointing. Anyway. I know that you (and apparently Kris since you guys have talked about this) believe I have my head up Mckenna's ass 24/7, which is pretty ridiculous considering we just have a good, strong friendship. I also know that you think everyone, me in particular, wrongly accused you of posting shit at Mckenna's anonymous post. That wasn't the case at all and I'm not going to apologize for it because that's not what that conversation was supposed to entail. We were attempting to figure out who did it - and if it meant asking everyone on our flists, that's what we would have done. I personally shouldn't have even had to deal with any of this shit - the only reason I got involved was because I felt like SOMEONE needed to defend Mckenna when rude things were being said about her, disregarding whether or not they were true or false. Not to mention, it was COMPLETELY unnecessary to only attack ME when: Who was in the conversation? Christina, Mckenna, me, Jen, and you. But only I get a lashout? Alright. Honestly I don't have the energy to continue and this probably isn't as organized/efficient as it should be, but you know what, I'm DONE. I had a worry free weekend because I took the advice of others; saying that I should let this put me out. Now I'm back online for the first time since like, last Wednesday night or so. I'm trying to deal with everything at once and I've decided to say Fuck It. I haven't done anything to deserve this, HONESTLY, and if you think I've become a HORRIBLE friend for finding another person that I have a lot in common with and that I get along with really well, that's fine. I saw that you removed me from your flist and I've done so as well. It sucks that things had to go down this way but I guess that's life. I just think it's pretty sad that my only true outlet got ripped away from me during the times that I needed it most all as a result of stupid drama.
ALSO: I know you told Mckenna that you'd REFUSE to talk to me about this once I got back online, but I refuse to not tie up loose ends. I don't think that Unfinished Business is the way to go under these circumstances.
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