#15
Today was stupid ha ha i totally went to crash a CCA leaders' meeting and i realised that yeo told me about the wrong meeting so I ended up making a fool out of myself. Well at least me and Shamirah had somethg to laugh about.
On a more serious note.
School has been....mentally and physically exhausting T.G.I.F. I can't help but to feel like I don't have a proper position / group of friends in 3I it kinda sucks.
I've always thought me and you were quite close but I guess not. It has always been that way hasn't it. Asyikin the substitute. I've never said it to you but I think I will soon. You don't really know how much you hurt me. You don't really know how much you hurt people around you, to be honest. Maybe I'll be the first to tell you. Maybe. Maybe I won't. Fickle mindedzzzzz.
I miss Cedar Netball 2009. We were so close, we were one. Then school team selections broke us apart. Now look at us, we're practically strangers. I guess we were never really close in the beginning huh? Yeah its sec 3 already look at us ha ha we can't be salvaged, rest in peace Cedar Prata, you'll always be a fond memory of my sec one years.
Netball is fucking screwed up now, with Chng and Cherie and Amelia problems and everything and everyone and all the MOTHER FUCKING DRAMA, can't help wishing i should have joined UG or something. Always have admired UG's platoons and how close they are. Maybe cause they go through the bullshit together. Hah.
No seriously i am so fucking sick of netball, i have zero passion for netball, I give up. Ugh one more year and i'm graduating. Fuck you netball and your drama and your competitiveness i need a break from it all.
From Tammy's blog:
"Daisy Tan carnival. TODAY WE LOST EVERYTHING. HAHA. yes,im laughing for real. Cos today i learnt how true it is when people say that 'winning is not important.what's important is that you have fun'. Maybe it was the fact that there were only a few people from each level, but i could really feel us getting closer to the sec1s(2s?) than we've ever gotten before. Basically all we did was sit together in ONE bunch and talked about everything and everybody. EVERYBODY. And played husband and wife within one third of the court while every other school around us were training shit.
I miss the times where the whole of cedar netball would be ONE. Nowadays the school team always seems so uptight about everything related to netball and the competition seems to really be screwing things up. So yeah..guess thats one of the biggest perks of non-school-teamism."
I agree totally. Nb is now like... Non school team X 100% school team X Potential school team (but failed to make the cut). It's fucking stupid really. Cherie, Chng, Yeo. I don't hate Amelia, but why did you have to come here and screw up everything competition for positions' so tight now and you're not helping anything. I'm in no position to say anything but you cant shoot either.
I actually like to see Amelia vs Everyone fighting ha i'm a sadist i guess.
I miss weili, shuwen, shuhui, jkok. I miss 2009. I miss Cedar Prata. I miss us.
What went wrong?
Realised i have so much to say about netball and how fucked up everything is now i didn't realise how long this paragraph/rant?? is. Haha i take my hat off you if you read everything.
Hmmm i guess what they say is true, old friends are the best. I miss 2o and my lovergirls and i miss being a sec 1 with my sec 2 seniors protecting me and loving me because I know they'll always be there when i need them.