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❝ I don't cut.I can't, even when it feels like I desperately need to.
What stops me? Guilt. Knowing how much it would hurt you, if you ever knew.
I wouldn't be able to keep it from you. I couldn't stand the pain in your eyes.
And you know what? I am so grateful for that. Thank you.❞
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Hi girl.
Please, please stop cutting yourself.
I know you're sad and depressed and you get into a bit of a negative funk at times but really, just. please. don't hurt yourself. Can you not see how much it hurts me? Can you look up for a little, see the pain in my eyes? Can you see how much it's affecting everyone, can you see how much it's affecting yourself? Please. Please stop. I already feel useless enough not being able to help you in any way. I know you think that i think that you're burdensome. But I want to help you. I want to be there for you. I want to share your pain. I want to suffer with you. You don't deserve all of this. I, as a friend, should be there for you. But you don't open your heart. You keep it guarded. I feel useless. Failure as a friend. I WANT TO HELP YOU. I WANT TO BE THERE FOR YOU.
I WANT YOU TO STOP BEING HURT. I WANT YOU TO SLEEP HAPPY. I WANT THE RETARDED, CRAZY GIRL THAT I MET IN SEC 1 BACK. PLEASE. I MISS YOU.
Crying's been normal for me every day and the worst thing is.......... i have absolutely nothing to be sad about!! HAHAHAHA P. M. S.