On slightly sad things
I think I'm going to have to take a break for a while and while it isn't entirely such a bad thing, I can't help but think about work and all the unfinished stuff I'm leaving behind. And seriously I know how completely asinine it is to be thinking of work when health is more important, but I guess I'm myopic that way. My folks have been nothing but supportive, and this has really been something that's been weighing on my mind the past few years. So it looks like (perhaps way past) time to finally deal with it. Wow procrastination. This is what I am made of!
Meanwhile, in disappointments and dashed hopes. I think I was putting a bit too much stock in tcm.. It is probably still valid and of use, but man my hopes were way high. Despite my best efforts at "self management" it seems I had really thought that this would have been the one cure. Am I better off not having given it a shot? Who knows.. Maybe such things take time. But time is a commodity and one in which I sorely lack.
Was in a blue funk earlier, that was sometime in the evening. As the night wore on I felt a bit more blue. I realized that the time of day does indeed matter, like somehow things would have looked slightly better when the skies are bright and the weather is warm? Perhaps it is a mental thing. It would've helped me at least. But I thank God for good folks and friends (friends?) who help keep things in perspective. Things happen for a reason, and we'll just take things as they come, and hopefully be at peace.
In other notes... the father of a church bro passed away today. He was a good man, a God-fearing and at times humorous guy. Though I've never had a chance to talk more with him, his legacy is apparent in the children who care for him. I hope he is finally resting well, in the Lord's arms. I know he would be.
"Time is
Too slow for those who Wait,
Too swift for those who Fear,
Too long for those who Grieve,
Too short for those who Rejoice,
But for those who Love,
Time is not."
- Henry Van Dyke
Meanwhile, in disappointments and dashed hopes. I think I was putting a bit too much stock in tcm.. It is probably still valid and of use, but man my hopes were way high. Despite my best efforts at "self management" it seems I had really thought that this would have been the one cure. Am I better off not having given it a shot? Who knows.. Maybe such things take time. But time is a commodity and one in which I sorely lack.
Was in a blue funk earlier, that was sometime in the evening. As the night wore on I felt a bit more blue. I realized that the time of day does indeed matter, like somehow things would have looked slightly better when the skies are bright and the weather is warm? Perhaps it is a mental thing. It would've helped me at least. But I thank God for good folks and friends (friends?) who help keep things in perspective. Things happen for a reason, and we'll just take things as they come, and hopefully be at peace.
In other notes... the father of a church bro passed away today. He was a good man, a God-fearing and at times humorous guy. Though I've never had a chance to talk more with him, his legacy is apparent in the children who care for him. I hope he is finally resting well, in the Lord's arms. I know he would be.
"Time is
Too slow for those who Wait,
Too swift for those who Fear,
Too long for those who Grieve,
Too short for those who Rejoice,
But for those who Love,
Time is not."
- Henry Van Dyke