I hate this part
We got THIRD for 4x400m finals.It wasn't what we had expected.Were we too complacent?Did we not perform to our best?Or what?Why didn't we achieve our goal?I'm quite disappointed actually,but no one is to be blamed.I believe everyone tried their best though.A third place is better than nothing right?But seriously,i don't like being the last runner.All hopes will be put on me and this in turn becomes a burden.Yes i want to win(who wants to lose?),but what i can do is limited.Im not a rocket,a natural runner,maybe it's just that my legs are a little more muscular.So just now,when i just finished the race,i felt i let the team down.We all wanted to get first,yet it was quite beyond our reach.The distance was too far.I couldn't catch up.I was struggling with the last 100m only to overtake the third runner,who's my friend.We were both tired,and when i overtook her,i could hear her frustrations.She wanted to win too,but i dashed her hopes.From third she became forth,and from forth,i became third.Does competition harm relationships?If it does,why are we competing with one another?For the sake of glory?I don't know.Im dead beat.I wanna sleep now.I hate the reality.