under pressure
I have been overtaken by this insatiable desire to excel in the work i do. It's strange really... i always hated kids, but this job is intensely wonderful. I really enjoy working with mentally disturbed children. I love it when i see the changes in a clients behavior, and then they return home and successful in their home as well. I love making a kid feel loved even though their life before was shattered and dysfunctional. I want nothing but the best for these children, and i am researching how to teach these kids basic skills they were never taught. It's interesting and i am in love with what i do. Although it is VERY stressful at times... aka all the time... and i get the shit beat out of me on a regular basis. (i have had massive chunks of my hair bitten and pulled out) i still love it.
on a side note i am stressed the fuck out about living with my mother here in a couple of weeks. i was really hoping someone would let me couch surf for a couple of weeks but it doesn't look that way. i am seriously considering sleeping in my car. It wouldn't be that bad really, i could shower at my moms or at my boyfriends place. nah i better not.
overall, my emotions are way more in check since i got on meds. i still have anxiety like really bad, but i am not so up and down. I hated feeling depressed and manic all the damn time. my script to adderrall has also helped me immensely.
at any rate i dig my life for the most part these days. i am really fucking sick of iowa though!
on a side note i am stressed the fuck out about living with my mother here in a couple of weeks. i was really hoping someone would let me couch surf for a couple of weeks but it doesn't look that way. i am seriously considering sleeping in my car. It wouldn't be that bad really, i could shower at my moms or at my boyfriends place. nah i better not.
overall, my emotions are way more in check since i got on meds. i still have anxiety like really bad, but i am not so up and down. I hated feeling depressed and manic all the damn time. my script to adderrall has also helped me immensely.
at any rate i dig my life for the most part these days. i am really fucking sick of iowa though!