the one to count on
I suppose that i shouldn't count on anyone else but me:
-to get me through those long nights at work where all i do is think think think
-assure me that when i am feeling blue it will pass and it's only for a moment or two
-hold me back when all i want to do is run
-give me motivation to acomplish what it is that i want to do.
and even though i know that it should be me telling myself all these things, somehow i cannot bring myself to do so, i cannot find the motivation to do anything other than hate myself.
i thought that maybe i had found someone, one person, that one person that would pick up where i lack, and do all these things for me because lord knows that i will never ever ever do them myself.
yes i have accepted the fact that i am co-dependent, but for the love of fucking god give me something to be like hey.. this is fan-fucking-tastic! instead of the usual, yeah that DIDN'T fucking happen
-to get me through those long nights at work where all i do is think think think
-assure me that when i am feeling blue it will pass and it's only for a moment or two
-hold me back when all i want to do is run
-give me motivation to acomplish what it is that i want to do.
and even though i know that it should be me telling myself all these things, somehow i cannot bring myself to do so, i cannot find the motivation to do anything other than hate myself.
i thought that maybe i had found someone, one person, that one person that would pick up where i lack, and do all these things for me because lord knows that i will never ever ever do them myself.
yes i have accepted the fact that i am co-dependent, but for the love of fucking god give me something to be like hey.. this is fan-fucking-tastic! instead of the usual, yeah that DIDN'T fucking happen