Im depressed
Im depressed.
Im fat,well im not fat but im not all muscle anymore
Sure my stomach is flat but my 6 pack is gone
Yea I know it would only take a total of 3 days to fix
but Im lazy
what else is new.
So I have a job
its not for me.
Everybody is old
older then you guys even
like 26.
Actually thats like Christi
and theres a bartender that graduated from Jtown with christi and said he knew the name,
weird.
I hate TGI Fridays
it sucks
cuz you only liked it cause thats were you bet Bryan
if I was single and not in love maybe it would be better
No probably not cause that would mean I didnt have Andrew and so I would be depressed
Actually I would be doubled depressed cause I would have a sucky job and no Angee.
So no even if i was super skinng and in shape and single it would suck balls.
Everyone there has been there forever
Now I know how the new people felt like at Bass when we didnt try to make friends with them.
Im sorry.
I miss my old job,if I wanted I could go back and be a manager.
But its too much gas and too much of a commitment
and zero money.
I dont know why I dont like it
Maybe because I know nothing about the whole resautrant buisness yet.
At Bass when I started it was easy I knew retail.
Serving?
uh no I dont think so.
Why am I writing in semi list form?
Idk
I just feel so helpless.
I guess I feel annoying cause this people have to follow me around
and vise versa
I know I should stick it out till Im at least serving myself and dont need any help.
If I still hate it I could always apply to Perkins its opening up soon.
That way I would be the first staff and wouldnt feel stupid and young
and I would already be trained from Fridays
who knows.
I see these people and they are all good friends and go out together
I miss being at Bass with Justin Danielle Gill Mars...everybody
I miss having my friends.
I miss being home.
All I wanted to do today was be done with work so that I could come here,I was hoping to be with Angee but he went out to his friends school. Which I knew but I was hoping he could be with me to cheer me up but its ok,hes getting me from work tomorrow so that will keep me going while Im there. I want a ciggerett right now but mum is awake and I guess I dont feel like really being in the cold anyway.I should just quit but now isnt the time.I will.One day.Not today though.I want a car.I need a car.
Hey I am getting over $500 back in taxes this year so mum says I have to pay off my drinking ticket and I also think I will get a new drivers liscense and also change my address at the bank finially since it is the Cassville rd address still haha.
And gradually I will pay off my phone bill.
But my first paycheck will be for Mollys shoes for her birthday present.
Then the phone bill
then face wash
and I dont know
nothing
treat Angee to something
bring sis out?
Something fun
maybe that improv thing again
go into the city and take class
yayyy Jasons class for sure
swoon
I miss his class.
Ok Im going to go watch Goldens, because they are my medication.I always become happy when I watch them.
Peaceinthemiddeeasthopeeveryoneelseishappiertheniamloveyouguys.
Im fat,well im not fat but im not all muscle anymore
Sure my stomach is flat but my 6 pack is gone
Yea I know it would only take a total of 3 days to fix
but Im lazy
what else is new.
So I have a job
its not for me.
Everybody is old
older then you guys even
like 26.
Actually thats like Christi
and theres a bartender that graduated from Jtown with christi and said he knew the name,
weird.
I hate TGI Fridays
it sucks
cuz you only liked it cause thats were you bet Bryan
if I was single and not in love maybe it would be better
No probably not cause that would mean I didnt have Andrew and so I would be depressed
Actually I would be doubled depressed cause I would have a sucky job and no Angee.
So no even if i was super skinng and in shape and single it would suck balls.
Everyone there has been there forever
Now I know how the new people felt like at Bass when we didnt try to make friends with them.
Im sorry.
I miss my old job,if I wanted I could go back and be a manager.
But its too much gas and too much of a commitment
and zero money.
I dont know why I dont like it
Maybe because I know nothing about the whole resautrant buisness yet.
At Bass when I started it was easy I knew retail.
Serving?
uh no I dont think so.
Why am I writing in semi list form?
Idk
I just feel so helpless.
I guess I feel annoying cause this people have to follow me around
and vise versa
I know I should stick it out till Im at least serving myself and dont need any help.
If I still hate it I could always apply to Perkins its opening up soon.
That way I would be the first staff and wouldnt feel stupid and young
and I would already be trained from Fridays
who knows.
I see these people and they are all good friends and go out together
I miss being at Bass with Justin Danielle Gill Mars...everybody
I miss having my friends.
I miss being home.
All I wanted to do today was be done with work so that I could come here,I was hoping to be with Angee but he went out to his friends school. Which I knew but I was hoping he could be with me to cheer me up but its ok,hes getting me from work tomorrow so that will keep me going while Im there. I want a ciggerett right now but mum is awake and I guess I dont feel like really being in the cold anyway.I should just quit but now isnt the time.I will.One day.Not today though.I want a car.I need a car.
Hey I am getting over $500 back in taxes this year so mum says I have to pay off my drinking ticket and I also think I will get a new drivers liscense and also change my address at the bank finially since it is the Cassville rd address still haha.
And gradually I will pay off my phone bill.
But my first paycheck will be for Mollys shoes for her birthday present.
Then the phone bill
then face wash
and I dont know
nothing
treat Angee to something
bring sis out?
Something fun
maybe that improv thing again
go into the city and take class
yayyy Jasons class for sure
swoon
I miss his class.
Ok Im going to go watch Goldens, because they are my medication.I always become happy when I watch them.
Peaceinthemiddeeasthopeeveryoneelseishappiertheniamloveyouguys.