Loosing sleep for days
KTs logic:
I said I wouldnt write about you anymore...but here I am writing about you again and again and forever more...
We needed a break and we did it we went back to eachother and we secretly saw eachother and we still do or we used to anyway.And the nites are always better then the days arent they? They used to be.
West Fish-our get away
Day time meant we needed to talk and help eachother
Night time meant fun we wanted eachother we were still in love, only as a secret though.
Now I feel my days are beautiful and my nights are horrible...Im always doing something or your always doing something..We're always doing something.
"Im a mess I guess"
so on with my story cause it goes on and on and it will never end WE will never end.But why?
You broke up with me.
And I still wanted you but you needed to be alone without me I should say, you had to lie to not hurt me and you wanted to find new things and feel different things and You did it, you did it until I started, til I moved on.Then you realized what I mean to you and you want me now. You ended things and tried to restart things with me. And the whole time you were involved with her I was crazy I was sad and depressed trying to find myself cause I got lost in you, I was asking the questions all the time wanting to know every detail and when can we get back together? dont you love me? Yes people I was crazy...and maybe I still am...
Now the tables have turned.
I found myself cause I realize Im not in you im right here in me and I realize now that I am someone without you im more then 'Pannella's bitch' now. Im happy or I was anyway.Now Im out meeting people and having fun just like you did,I just want to make mistakes or not even make a mistake just be alone..without you,now your asking the questions snooping around finding answers and hearing things,your in my spot and you know how it feels now and so Im allowing you to be crazy like I was and Ill deal with it cause I did it too and Im sorry for being that way, but dont get mad at me for keeping details and lieing about stupid things cause you also know what its like to look the one person you love in the eye and try to tell them the truth when you know its going to destroy them,I hate lieing and I dont want to and Im trying not to but you cant expect me to tell you everything because Im not your girlfriend and I honestly dont have to tell you anything at all if I dont want but you mean so much to me that I will I will give you what you need to know.
I want to work things out one day, not today, not tomorrow...but one day, in the future yes and I dont expect you to wait,dont expect me to wait.
What will be will be....we know that.
But we've made it this far we can go further..I think
And right here right now I am going to apologize for all the hurt you might feel and all you already have felt.Im not trying to hurt you, Im just trying to be me...
Im done, not with writing about you or for you, but Im done talking about these things,please respect that....im out of energy, im out of my logic, im done with being right.
The End of Kts logic
I hope someone or you even find some sense or help within this rubbish.
I said I wouldnt write about you anymore...but here I am writing about you again and again and forever more...
We needed a break and we did it we went back to eachother and we secretly saw eachother and we still do or we used to anyway.And the nites are always better then the days arent they? They used to be.
West Fish-our get away
Day time meant we needed to talk and help eachother
Night time meant fun we wanted eachother we were still in love, only as a secret though.
Now I feel my days are beautiful and my nights are horrible...Im always doing something or your always doing something..We're always doing something.
"Im a mess I guess"
so on with my story cause it goes on and on and it will never end WE will never end.But why?
You broke up with me.
And I still wanted you but you needed to be alone without me I should say, you had to lie to not hurt me and you wanted to find new things and feel different things and You did it, you did it until I started, til I moved on.Then you realized what I mean to you and you want me now. You ended things and tried to restart things with me. And the whole time you were involved with her I was crazy I was sad and depressed trying to find myself cause I got lost in you, I was asking the questions all the time wanting to know every detail and when can we get back together? dont you love me? Yes people I was crazy...and maybe I still am...
Now the tables have turned.
I found myself cause I realize Im not in you im right here in me and I realize now that I am someone without you im more then 'Pannella's bitch' now. Im happy or I was anyway.Now Im out meeting people and having fun just like you did,I just want to make mistakes or not even make a mistake just be alone..without you,now your asking the questions snooping around finding answers and hearing things,your in my spot and you know how it feels now and so Im allowing you to be crazy like I was and Ill deal with it cause I did it too and Im sorry for being that way, but dont get mad at me for keeping details and lieing about stupid things cause you also know what its like to look the one person you love in the eye and try to tell them the truth when you know its going to destroy them,I hate lieing and I dont want to and Im trying not to but you cant expect me to tell you everything because Im not your girlfriend and I honestly dont have to tell you anything at all if I dont want but you mean so much to me that I will I will give you what you need to know.
I want to work things out one day, not today, not tomorrow...but one day, in the future yes and I dont expect you to wait,dont expect me to wait.
What will be will be....we know that.
But we've made it this far we can go further..I think
And right here right now I am going to apologize for all the hurt you might feel and all you already have felt.Im not trying to hurt you, Im just trying to be me...
Im done, not with writing about you or for you, but Im done talking about these things,please respect that....im out of energy, im out of my logic, im done with being right.
The End of Kts logic
I hope someone or you even find some sense or help within this rubbish.