Making a comeback
December 19, 2010
I stopped posting a while back. I had been exercising and trying to eat much better. I felt good. And then I went to the doctor and found out that I hadn't changed my cholesterol levels, or even my weight really. I had worked so hard...and now this news. I cried immediately. Tears came out of my eyes horizontally...like squirting out. I was so disappointed. Crushed. My whole training, walking, and yoga routine slowly disappeared. I found myself not caring about the size of my portions at all....what would it matter. Nothing helped anyways.
Well now it's about a year later, I guess. I feel terrible, my belly has swollen, I run out of breath, and have zero energy. I think this points out where my rewards had been last year...I felt great, had energy, hope, and was getting tighter everywhere. Sometimes you don't appreciate what gifts your body has until they go away. So hear I am, humbled and more than a bit frustrated...but willing to start again. I will take whatever rewards grace my life, and never give up again. If my cholesterol doesn't change in 6 months, I will wait a year, then two, etc. I just hope I can regain what I threw away.
Fighter
I stopped posting a while back. I had been exercising and trying to eat much better. I felt good. And then I went to the doctor and found out that I hadn't changed my cholesterol levels, or even my weight really. I had worked so hard...and now this news. I cried immediately. Tears came out of my eyes horizontally...like squirting out. I was so disappointed. Crushed. My whole training, walking, and yoga routine slowly disappeared. I found myself not caring about the size of my portions at all....what would it matter. Nothing helped anyways.
Well now it's about a year later, I guess. I feel terrible, my belly has swollen, I run out of breath, and have zero energy. I think this points out where my rewards had been last year...I felt great, had energy, hope, and was getting tighter everywhere. Sometimes you don't appreciate what gifts your body has until they go away. So hear I am, humbled and more than a bit frustrated...but willing to start again. I will take whatever rewards grace my life, and never give up again. If my cholesterol doesn't change in 6 months, I will wait a year, then two, etc. I just hope I can regain what I threw away.
Fighter