I think about you all the time...
So, I just woke up. I am in a bad mood. I don't know why.
Last night, I think I realized that I am a bad friend. For a lot of reasons. It just seems like.. no matter how hard I do TRY to be a good one, I just don't know if its cut out for me...and in the end makes me look like I am actually trying to hurt people... or.. I just do. I am too busy thinking about myself to actually think about what I am doing, or how it will affect other people by what I am doing. Then.. what I do want.. gets controlled by my stupid emotions and doing stupid things, and fears of getting hurt...so i become distant. Greatttt. I dont know what it is. I do know what its not. Its not on purpose, its not to make people feel bad, its not to directly hurt people, its not for me. I just hope that people realize that I let stupid things affect me, and they alter my decisions. And.. if I have hurt you before..I am sorry.
I want to have a Valentine this year..too bad the one that I want it to be has a girlfriend who's head I want to rip off. But oh well..maybe...maybe.
When I see you, it feels weird not to talk to you. No matter what happens you will always be there.. and I am starting to realize/realized that that's not such a bad thing. <3
Okay.. my day better turn out better than this.
.xox.
Kellie
Last night, I think I realized that I am a bad friend. For a lot of reasons. It just seems like.. no matter how hard I do TRY to be a good one, I just don't know if its cut out for me...and in the end makes me look like I am actually trying to hurt people... or.. I just do. I am too busy thinking about myself to actually think about what I am doing, or how it will affect other people by what I am doing. Then.. what I do want.. gets controlled by my stupid emotions and doing stupid things, and fears of getting hurt...so i become distant. Greatttt. I dont know what it is. I do know what its not. Its not on purpose, its not to make people feel bad, its not to directly hurt people, its not for me. I just hope that people realize that I let stupid things affect me, and they alter my decisions. And.. if I have hurt you before..I am sorry.
I want to have a Valentine this year..too bad the one that I want it to be has a girlfriend who's head I want to rip off. But oh well..maybe...maybe.
When I see you, it feels weird not to talk to you. No matter what happens you will always be there.. and I am starting to realize/realized that that's not such a bad thing. <3
Okay.. my day better turn out better than this.
.xox.
Kellie