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its been a long time since ive posted. alot has happened. im happy that we only have a couple weeks left of school but im sorta bummed. i need to work on my grades but i can do that. alot of things are gonna change. its gonna be weird. i dnt knw what its gonna be like, good, bad, indifferent. maybe its gonna be a fun change. im gonna need to learn alot but so is everybody else. im gonna see a different part of people. some the better, some the worse. and my opinions will change. ill think differently. ill mature. its weird when all of your friends are 16 but you take a step back and you see that your different and less matured. its weird to think that im still so young, so immature. yeah i act all immature and i think thats me not wanting to grow up. wanting to stay young. not wanting to cross this barrier. i dnt get a choice do i. i find my self wondering if im the person i want to be. i wonder how people think of me now. i hope that when i leave a persons life, they think of me in a good way. i hope i affected them. made their lives better. hopefully i have done that. but i hope this isnt the real me. i hope that ive still got alot up my sleeve. so much is gonna be different. i can only make my self the best i can be. i can only change me. then i need to hope that my friends go in the right direction.

ive been thinking and im just in high school. i have 2 more years to live as a kid. then i can become the real me in college. so for the next 2 years, im gonna be me to the best of my ability. and when that day comes when i go to college, be ready cause im gonna shock the world.