it starts like fascination, it ends up like a trance
i am in love with my new icon...oh jazz devil, you made forbidden zone that much cooler.
my mother called me up asking me to come over here (i'm at my parents' place) so we could "talk." then they left. just as well i suppose. i needed to be alone for awhile.
i am so irritated and i don't know why. however, i don't like it. this flatline of no emotions sucks. keeping my mouth shut is becoming easier and harder at the same time. easier in that i don't feel like talking much anymore (at least not about books or movies or even music or other assorted bullshit), and harder in that i have to stop myself from saying really shitty things to certain people. *yeah, you know who* people that i know a lot and perhaps too much about. luckily there is a lot of weed at home right now to perhaps stop this process.
you wanted me to stop being so passive, right?
i have a feeling i could hurt someone very badly soon. maybe tonight...it could be liberating. i should go back to weeden tonight...the more time i have to sit and stew over this the worse it will be.
oh, but it would feel so good. yeah, someone is going to get called out on their shit tonight.
WHEN IS THE DEF JUX FESTIVAL? i need to see it very badly. hip hop music is a good uplifter.
that's all.
my mother called me up asking me to come over here (i'm at my parents' place) so we could "talk." then they left. just as well i suppose. i needed to be alone for awhile.
i am so irritated and i don't know why. however, i don't like it. this flatline of no emotions sucks. keeping my mouth shut is becoming easier and harder at the same time. easier in that i don't feel like talking much anymore (at least not about books or movies or even music or other assorted bullshit), and harder in that i have to stop myself from saying really shitty things to certain people. *yeah, you know who* people that i know a lot and perhaps too much about. luckily there is a lot of weed at home right now to perhaps stop this process.
you wanted me to stop being so passive, right?
i have a feeling i could hurt someone very badly soon. maybe tonight...it could be liberating. i should go back to weeden tonight...the more time i have to sit and stew over this the worse it will be.
oh, but it would feel so good. yeah, someone is going to get called out on their shit tonight.
WHEN IS THE DEF JUX FESTIVAL? i need to see it very badly. hip hop music is a good uplifter.
that's all.