//just wanna be loved

[otaku_mk_ii]

[Anyone wandering into the library would find this Otacon sitting at a desk and focusing on the familiar blueprints in front of him. He had hardly slept in days, as a working Otacon tended to do

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[viscous_serpent]

[A metal tentacle lightly taps him on the shoulder.]

[otaku_mk_ii]

[He glanced up for a second, smiling before looking back at his current progress.]

Hey. I finished the generator,and I'll start planning for that communication device as soon as I'm finished with this.

[viscous_serpent]

[He looked rather relieved.]

That's wonderful, Otacon. Thank you.

...

Is that REX?

[otaku_mk_ii]

It's no problem. Whaever you need should plug right into the generator, and it's powered by those solar panels. After that, someone'll just need to check up on it from time to time to make sure it's still functioning-...

...oh. Um...Yeah. [Huh. This probably looked suspicious, didn't it?] Don't worry, I won't let anyone dangerous get their hands on it. And it's not like I'm planning on building anything.

[viscous_serpent]

That's good to hear. I'm sure it will work fine. I'll keep checking on it, however.

...so why make the plans if you don't plan to build it?

[otaku_mk_ii]

If it ever acts up, just let me know and I'll be sure to make whatever repairs I have to.

Well...my father wanted to take a look at them. I met him here not too long ago.

[viscous_serpent]

Thank you. I'm sure he'll be grateful.

...hm, I see. He was a scientist too, wasn't he? I suppose he would be interested.

[otaku_mk_ii]

It was nothing at all. A solar-powered generator was simple--kind of fun, actually. I was just lucky to find all the parts.

...yeah, he was. An engineer, I think--don't really remember all that well.

[viscous_serpent]

"Simple"? [He chuckled lightly.] You're a genius. I suppose it would be simple to you.

It's good that you've met here.

[otaku_mk_ii]

Genius? Nah, I wouldn't go that far. I'm just good at what I do.

Yeah, I...I guess it really is.

[viscous_serpent]

...you sound uncertain. Is something the matter?

[otaku_mk_ii]

...

I can trust you, right?

[viscous_serpent]

...? Of course. Why?

[otaku_mk_ii]

It's...well, the whole thing's kind of complicated and I don't usually talk about it.

[viscous_serpent]

Believe me, I know all about complicated existences. Try me, if you need to talk about it.

[otaku_mk_ii]

[Otacon took a deep breath and sighed, leaning back in his chair and adjusting his glasses.]

My father was always working on one thing or another. After my mother died, it was just the two of us for a while. And if he was anything like I am now, then he probably dealt with it by working on something to distract himself. I mean, I d-don't resent him for it or anything, but I g-guess I was just sort of lonely.

He...eventually killed himself. [And it was my fault.] I was sixteen.

It's just th-that...all I ever really wanted was for him to notice me. To do something, anything that he could be proud of me for. If he ever fully realizes his only son's a failure...I don't know if I could live with one more thing to feel guilty over.