yea wow
i can't really believe it. i guess kes and jorge broke up... i'm glad she dumpped him. he was such as ass to her. it's not fun getting shit on by the person you care about the most.
i just want everyone to fall in love and live happily ever after. hey if tammy and rosa can find their matchs... why not other kids like me? i think i just want it to much. i want to get married and maybe have kids (10 years from now) but i want to have a good solid realitonship to stand on before that stuff happenes. i wish i could talkto donnie. i don't know why i'm so scared. maybe it's because i don't want to hear what i think he's going to say. when i was over there last i used the bathroom and on the floor there was a list... all chicks and i know at least most of them he slept with... the first chick he slept with was on the top of the list and then gina... i don't know if that was me and he was misspelling my name to throw me off or what. i hope it was me. i would rather be #2 then no where at all. and i don't know what the list was all about (cyntha was near the bottom wuhaha) and i know if i asked him about it he wouldn't tell me the truth. he told me that his friend joe has the hots for me. i asked if he was going to try and set us up now and he said no why would i do that.. i just wanted you to know. why do i want to know these things? i could care less about how his friends feel about me. i want to know how he does. i wish i was a stronger person and could just flat out ask him. i have next friday off. the first friday night in a month. and then i don't have to be in the named day until 12am but i know if i ask to hang with him he will blow me off again. but at the same time i'm hopeing he won't. i was thinking of having a back up plain that involed going to gainsville and get my drink on with kyle. but i know he would freak if i did. i would never date kyle again. but unlike donnie he makes me feel special. like i am worth it. and kyle has so much more then donnie. he knows where he wants to go in life, has an awsome job and likes to spend his money on me. but, i know it wouldn't work out. he is just as selfish as donnie is. and likes things his way and his way only. i asked my cards if i should give up on donnie and it said to be patichent. and i'm going to try. it's just so hard for me not to get what i want when i want it. i'm a daddy's girl and a leo. too bad things. i may be selfish too at times. but i would never make donnie feel like crap... or let him feel like i didn't care. and that is how me makes me feel. maybe he is just trying to be cool. i just want to feel loved again. or at least as cloest as feeling love as i can get.
i just want everyone to fall in love and live happily ever after. hey if tammy and rosa can find their matchs... why not other kids like me? i think i just want it to much. i want to get married and maybe have kids (10 years from now) but i want to have a good solid realitonship to stand on before that stuff happenes. i wish i could talkto donnie. i don't know why i'm so scared. maybe it's because i don't want to hear what i think he's going to say. when i was over there last i used the bathroom and on the floor there was a list... all chicks and i know at least most of them he slept with... the first chick he slept with was on the top of the list and then gina... i don't know if that was me and he was misspelling my name to throw me off or what. i hope it was me. i would rather be #2 then no where at all. and i don't know what the list was all about (cyntha was near the bottom wuhaha) and i know if i asked him about it he wouldn't tell me the truth. he told me that his friend joe has the hots for me. i asked if he was going to try and set us up now and he said no why would i do that.. i just wanted you to know. why do i want to know these things? i could care less about how his friends feel about me. i want to know how he does. i wish i was a stronger person and could just flat out ask him. i have next friday off. the first friday night in a month. and then i don't have to be in the named day until 12am but i know if i ask to hang with him he will blow me off again. but at the same time i'm hopeing he won't. i was thinking of having a back up plain that involed going to gainsville and get my drink on with kyle. but i know he would freak if i did. i would never date kyle again. but unlike donnie he makes me feel special. like i am worth it. and kyle has so much more then donnie. he knows where he wants to go in life, has an awsome job and likes to spend his money on me. but, i know it wouldn't work out. he is just as selfish as donnie is. and likes things his way and his way only. i asked my cards if i should give up on donnie and it said to be patichent. and i'm going to try. it's just so hard for me not to get what i want when i want it. i'm a daddy's girl and a leo. too bad things. i may be selfish too at times. but i would never make donnie feel like crap... or let him feel like i didn't care. and that is how me makes me feel. maybe he is just trying to be cool. i just want to feel loved again. or at least as cloest as feeling love as i can get.