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--sigh--
i don't even know how long it's been since i've been on the site. i have been away. shit really hit the fan one day and i had to check myself in for a while. well, probably two whole months? sometime in may i went in. i still hadn't been on since then because life was just getting so insane i didn't know where to begin. my mother passed away. my sister called me one day and told me she was killed in a car addcident. it's not like we had talked in over a year, but still. she was my mother. my father i guess has since gone insane, i've heard he won't leave the house, he quit his job and has turned the telephone off. my sister lives all the way across the country, so it's not like she, nor i can just stop by to see him. plus, after being kicked out of my house because of my pregnancy i don't think i'd be the one he'd want to see right about now. they never even knew i gave the baby up for adoption. still paying the fucking bills for that, fuck. i had started to date one girl, but after my sister called i got kind of reclouse and she's found a new boie to play with. after that i checked myself in and the past two months have been somewhat a blur. secret affairs with various room mates, trying to find anything to harm myself, sleeping for days on end. i'm not even sure what was real now that i'm out. i think i'm doing alright, but maybe i'm just covering it up so i dont really have to deal with it... aw well, one way or the other i'm doing okay...
--Sammi
i don't even know how long it's been since i've been on the site. i have been away. shit really hit the fan one day and i had to check myself in for a while. well, probably two whole months? sometime in may i went in. i still hadn't been on since then because life was just getting so insane i didn't know where to begin. my mother passed away. my sister called me one day and told me she was killed in a car addcident. it's not like we had talked in over a year, but still. she was my mother. my father i guess has since gone insane, i've heard he won't leave the house, he quit his job and has turned the telephone off. my sister lives all the way across the country, so it's not like she, nor i can just stop by to see him. plus, after being kicked out of my house because of my pregnancy i don't think i'd be the one he'd want to see right about now. they never even knew i gave the baby up for adoption. still paying the fucking bills for that, fuck. i had started to date one girl, but after my sister called i got kind of reclouse and she's found a new boie to play with. after that i checked myself in and the past two months have been somewhat a blur. secret affairs with various room mates, trying to find anything to harm myself, sleeping for days on end. i'm not even sure what was real now that i'm out. i think i'm doing alright, but maybe i'm just covering it up so i dont really have to deal with it... aw well, one way or the other i'm doing okay...
--Sammi