so let me tell you about the time i almost got arrested
ive been wanting to get my thoughts together for awhile now.
i seem to run into some unique problems- my latest one being bringing my daughter out into the world, such as to events here at the building in which we live. it's been my training wheels, safety net of community or so i thought. as i get to know myself, i realise that i personally have a magnetic presence that brings all the babies about, haha. this magnetic presence i have also causes me problems with the opposite sex but that's another story for another day. not a lot of people know this because no one really knows me, but i was almost arrested in 2019. i was in handcuffs for the first time ever and the officer brings me a laptop and asks me if that's me in the photo, and it was-- it was actually a photo from when i went to get security check done when i volunteered at the kids kottage. after i confirmed it was me, they let me go. when i was volunteering at the kids kottage in my early twenties the little babies would all come up to me, especially the native ones. i have accepted that i have this presence and honestly, that's one of the reasons why i didn't want to have a baby. my own baby is not like this though. she's her own person. i know she's gonna grow and watch as i still have this magnetic presence. anyway, i go to aa meetings, well briety meetings, and a parenting group. i know she's welcome at the meetings but when i sit down with her to watch her or keep her company while i listen or try to participate, another little baby will come up and try to get my attention. im not there to play! so i ignore, and twice this has happened with two different babies- after i did not get them attention they took Delilah's toy away. ive been keeping her away as much as i could but i finally found my answer in this book called the baby whisperer. it says i must keep my child safe. if i bring her out to the world to a place where the kids are mean to her, i am showing her that the world is not nice and i allow that treatment of her.
it would be nice if there were simple solutions to this problem but babies, little kids- they stare at me everywhere i go. it's not gonna stop so i have to find ways to explore the world safely with my daughter.