Apnea - Kai, Aoi

[fishisbad]

Chapters: Oneshot (drabbleish)
Genre: Friendship
Rating: G
Warnings: None
Summary: A breath of air. A moment of understanding. Something passes between Kai and Aoi after one of their lives.
Word count: 415
Disclaimer: I'm in no way affiliated with the GazettE or PS Company.
Characters are fictional. Any resemblance to actual people is purely coincidental.

Comments

[quarrions]

His legs are on fire. There is a cramp in his left shoulder, his arms are shaking. He collides with the door frame, his hands flail, but don’t grab at anything. His right leg gives out. He’ll crash to the floor. Doesn’t have the time to brace himself for the impact because the impact never comes.

Road to NLSG
I really liked this description, it was <3 I kind of love anything what´s in fire X"D

I could feel how exhausted Kai must have been

and then all those little things he can feel despite the state of his body and all ....

but the endign is the best
For the first time since joining he feels like he really belongs.

I am really glad you made this friendship fic (even though you can see romance there too, but I will think of it like a band friendship fic)

*thumbs up*

also thank you very much for participating, I really really appreciate it <33333333

[fishisbad]

Yes, that image of absolutely exhausted Kai from Road to NLSG is something that stays with you. I don't think I did it justice, I lack proper skill for that.

Actually, it is not romantic to me either, it is just that I fail when it comes to the actual genre of my fics and I am not sure friendship is even a genre.

But thank you for providing me with the inspiration ♥ And thank you for commenting :)

[rheakurokawa]

friendship is a genre. bandfic is too. i wish more people wrote friendship because sometimes that's the best. i love sex and relationships as much as anyone but sometimes something really really simple and normal is best.

[fishisbad]

But then it is not yaoi! And then I don't know how to post to communities :D

[rheakurokawa]

this was beautiful. under normal circumstances i would say more but i'm really not in my normal self. i think this was beautiful and gorgeously written and you should try to shake those insecurities away, this was really great. i think my favorite part, and the most vivid was when kai let himself slump to the floor. and this "For the first time since joining he feels like he really belongs."

[fishisbad]

Thank you. Just seeing you comment means a lot. There doesn't have to be something more said :)

Aoi and Kai are strange to me. When I think how Kai replaced Yune, Aoi's old bandmate (although we don't really know how close Aoi and Yune were), I wonder would there be some distance between the two of them. Aoi's irrational resentment, Kai's insecurity about that fact. Kai seems well loved by the rest of the band, fitting better in then Aoi himself, so it is Aoi who seems to stand on the sidelines at times.

And I don't know. I am not sure if it is good to talk so much in a reply to a comment, because some things should be seen from the story not have me explain what I wanted to say. Okay, here is not exactly the case, I hope :)

[rheakurokawa]

i read your other post too, about the insecurities and went straight to dana screaming that you can't be seriously so afraid because you are smart and how can you not see. and i wanted to make this long smart comment that you should just write and then i got emo (i'm in a not so friendly place lately) and went to sleep. so i couldn't write it anymore. i do read, i do think about things, i do care. i sometimes just

[fishisbad]

Oh, I haven't thought about Yune for a long long time. He was just creepy kind of looking guy and only fanfics that mentioned him, made him into some kind of villain. Not that I didn't know he isn't and just rolled my eyes at it, but still they didn't make me think of him. Then xxshamisen posted a fic with AoixYune, AoixKai pairing, she was going through her own Yune period and she friended me and the first thing I saw was a picture of Yune :) So she kind of made me see him for the first time. That is why I like fics and fandom :)

And it is fine with not commenting to my post. Most of the times when you do I can only leave you a lame reply, lol. So it is okay, I am not expecting you to come and coddle me. I was just venting :)

[cateris]

*smiles warmly*

I like to see that you finally got this out of your system :) Because it's a really nice flash :)

I can see how attached you are about the beginnings of Gazette and Yune before Kai and you thinking about how Kai had for quite some time some really stressful times, him being always aware that he was that other member that replaced another one and so he had to prove himself 2x times better than any one of them.

I like to see Aoi was there from the first moments to support him :) because he too himself was one of the late comers in the band too :) although he was there from the beginning. On the other hand, Aoi is AOI :)

I perceived this so much as a friendship snippet and I LOVE friendship stories or stories about really good best friends :)

[fishisbad]

Oh, but it is not that fic, lol. That fic I am already halfway to disowning :) This is just the thing I thought of when I saw that prompt. I usually don't work well with prompts, I can't make anything out of them but this one just was AoixKai all of a sudden. This I wrote a week ago, but only edited this morning into something that I could live with :)

[cateris]

That fic I am already halfway to disowning :)

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! DON'T DO THAT!!!!!! YOU'RE MAKING BABY!KAI CRY!!! YOU DON'T WANT TO MAKE BABY!KAI CRY, RIGHT? :)

This I wrote a week ago, but only edited this morning into something that I could live with :)

AND THE OSCAR GOES TO:

SAIKO!

*PEOPLE CHEERING!!!*

Wow, you did such a dramatic speech there ;)

oh, please, oh, please, promise me you'll continue with the other one too!

[fishisbad]

LOL, what :) I did want to post because of the challenge there, because that comm is not very active and I actually had an idea I wrote down. But I wanted to show Kai's exhaustion better, more details, but I didn't know how, so I left it and forgot the deadline and this morning I just went with simple. What I could write instead of what I couldn't.

I'll try to continue the other one :)

[cateris]

:) good ;)

[ruksugi]

This was a beautiful piece of work. I could feel his exhaustion through your words.

I have always like these kinds of fics where there is always a helping hand and some sort of bonding involved.

[fishisbad]

Thank you, I wasn't really sure I described the exhaustion good enough so it makes me happy to read your comment. I am glad I struck a chord then? Thank you for commenting.