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I hate.. feeling like this.
Like I've been lying to myself to
give me self worth.
I made myself think I was important.
That he actually was interested.
For once, I might be close to a relationship.
And I feel like I have no one to talk to about it.
Juli and I have opposite schedules.
Stefanie is probably more than tired of hearing about the topic.
Zach doesn't really do well with talking about serious topics.
Others just don't know the full story.
I really want to just call up Kyle like I usually would,
and he'd tell me how fucking ridiculous I am being,
make fun of me,
and then remind me that everything will be ok in the end.
Stupid fucking Iraq.
Stupid Boys.
Stupid Me.
Stupid ... everything.
Like I've been lying to myself to
give me self worth.
I made myself think I was important.
That he actually was interested.
For once, I might be close to a relationship.
And I feel like I have no one to talk to about it.
Juli and I have opposite schedules.
Stefanie is probably more than tired of hearing about the topic.
Zach doesn't really do well with talking about serious topics.
Others just don't know the full story.
I really want to just call up Kyle like I usually would,
and he'd tell me how fucking ridiculous I am being,
make fun of me,
and then remind me that everything will be ok in the end.
Stupid fucking Iraq.
Stupid Boys.
Stupid Me.
Stupid ... everything.