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[fishchick87]

ive been doing a lot of thinking lately a lot of thinking. its been nice. I've come to the conclusion that I feel much better with certain people out of my life. I was thinking about everything that has happened since i graduated and i realized that I have grown and that I'm different then I was then. I am glad that this past year has happened. Things have happened some good some bad. I don't regret any of the things that have happened they have allowed me to do some introspective thinking.   I am happy with the people that are in my life and that I have chosen to surround myself with. I am a much happier person then I was a year ago. I don't hold as much sadness and such. I think that if you haven't talked to me in awhile and were thinking about it you should because I am a wonderful person with wonderful ideas and a great amount of affection and kindness to share with the world. I want the world to be a better place for me and my people I want us to make it a better place. no I'm not going to lobby politicans and trying to get huge changes done but I don't think that is what it is really about. I think it's about not hating oen another and learning that everyone must cohabitate and so we have to work together to get things done. When I finish nursing school if that is what I end up doing I want to go to places that really need me. I don't really care if I will never be able to give blood again but I want to help people who do not have the menas to help themselves. I was thinking the other day if I don't make it in nursing then I would teach. I would love to work with children and help them learn to teach them things to teach them how to be with others. Seeing the light bulb go off in their minds and seeing the look on their face when they knwo they can do something is  one of the most amazing feelings in all of the world.  I want to work with children more then anything ever. I figure if you want to make a change start with the ones who are still able to be molded and help them form better opinons then their parents. don't go after the ones who have held the same beliefs a;lll of their lives. I mean do you really think that they are going to change their minds now? There are so many many wonderful things I have to share with you. I want to fly to other places and learn from them and live with them and then come to the same conclusion that I've always held. if youa re happy with someone or with something why do you need to change it. yes of course there could and probably is something better out there for you btu you found something that will help make this one single life that you have a little happier for right now.

I miss drew an awful lot. I know he will be bakc in liek two months bvut he is one of my closest friends and I miss him. I tlak to him more then I talk to some of my friends that are in town. isn't that a little sad. oh well.