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I just started on my lab due Thursday and I only have 25% of it done. I'm so distracted by so many things right now.
Joe didn't go to bed until like 10pm. He has to wake up at 3am. I hope he's okay tomorrow. He did sleep in later than me; so he should be fine. I worry about him a lot at his new job. I hope he doesn't hurt himself and I hope the hours go down like they are normally. He said they've been having problems with the guys behind them; because they keep wanting to do things differently which screws up the line. This job is going to help us get out of the hole and keep us both from freaking out about money for the next few months. It's almost October, we have windows on the line; we haven't paid for them yet, we haven't even set up the heating. So October, we'll be buttoning up the house. Hopefully we'll get that going so we don't have to freak out about it at the last minute.
I had a great weekend. Friday, right when I was at my worst point Nicole called me back. I was feeling quite lonely Friday although there were a lot of kids around. I tend to be more lonely with more people around that I'm not able to share feelings with. It probably has a lot to do with being an only child. John had left and went out to eat with Paul and Joe didn't know what to do for the night.
So she called me back. I met Nicole through OKCupid. She messaged me and noted how much we had in common. We emailed pages of emails to eachother and just recently in the past month or so we've finally gotten to hang out. We've both been so busy with our work and relationships we hadn't had much time to spend with eachother. Although we still have not hung out alone, Friday by far was the best time I was able to have with her. She came over and we rode the little dirt bike and started the bonfire. She actually started it with the flame thrower, it was awesome. We had a margaritta and a shot of liquer and walked to the train tracks to watch the train go by. I grabbed her hand, this is something I do to everyone in the dark on my property. But this was the beginning of a lot of affection that we were able to show eachother. We had fun just watching people ride bikes and be silly and having a few drinks here and there. I felt quite drunk at one point. We sat out on the front of the house and watched people ride dirt bikes and 4 wheelers. I put my arm around her, she put her hand on my thigh. The simple way we touched eachother was not just a touch, it was like I knew that she liked me by the way she touched me. You know that feeling? It wasn't anything sterile, it was meaningful and to make it even better... it was with a woman. I know this shouldn't really matter, but I've had trouble all my life being accepted by women for who I am. And there is a beautiful woman, whom I respect and have a lot in common with, showing me acceptance in a form other than that can be expressed verbally. I was high from this and still am.
We then sat on the couch with John and Joe and watched Harvey Birdman. She put her head on my shoulder and we held hands. John was being really cute and putting his arm around me and trying to touch our hands. It was really sweet. We were dozing on and off and Joe was being really cute, we should have made more room for him on the couch :)
Then, Nicole got a really bad headache which turned into a migrane. She got up kinda fast and was getting something out of her purse. She looked distraught. I thought I did something wrong at first; but as she was explaining it to Joe I found out she normally had migranes. Joe offered her our bed to lie down in until her medicine kicked in. I tucked her in and made sure no light was coming in and put some covers on her. I layed down next to her and we talked a bit about her migranes. I learned that if she drinks/doesn't eat right and has a stressful day, that it happens. I lightly touched her forhead and she brushed my hand softly. She eventually rolled to her side and I spooned her. I kissed the back of her neck and she kissed my hand and we talked about how nice this was. I put my arm around her waist, she intwined her fingers in my hands and moved as close as she could to me. I remember earlier that she said there was nothing like the touch of a woman. I knew what she meant at that point.
We planned on getting back up when she started to feel better; but she fell asleep in my arms. I stayed awake until I could hear her breathing the most calmly. We woke up in the same position at about 7am. We both used the restroom and then layed down again. She said something like, well I better get going. I hugged her and we layed there again for awhile and talked. I told her it was nice that we could be affectionate and the next morning still be able to. When she was about to leave I hugged her again and kissed her neck. She then kissed my cheek and I walked her to the kitchen.
I sent her a text message last night while I was in chicago. I told her I was thinking of her and that she was really awesome. She messaged me back later that night and said "awww, thanks. I'm thinking of you too, last night was great". :)
yay!
I think this is the beginning of something very awesome. She told me once via email that it takes her a lot longer to warm up to guys. I think that she likes both me and Joe, but it'll take longer for her to get close to Joe in an affectionate manor. Joe also takes a lot of time to become affectionate, because he's very afraid of making someone uncomfortable. I am too; but somehow I felt the vibe... Nicole is so awesome! I can easily see her becoming a part of our lives after Friday.
Saturday I went to Chicago. It was uber awesome. We ate a Chicago Diner, awesome practically all vegan food and went to Nate and Mina's apartment. It was so great! I wanted to stay all night; but I was feeling quite poopy. I even had 3 people begging me to stay and cuddle with them all night, but I really wanted to get home. I am on my period and I missed John. It seems like him and I need to make another date night; cause the last one... was kinda ruined by unexpected events. It's still totally awesome that I get to see him every day now and cuddle with him :)
Ohhhh, life is good. I just need a secretary to do my homework and dishes and clean and make lunch for me.
I love you all and thanks for listening.
Joe didn't go to bed until like 10pm. He has to wake up at 3am. I hope he's okay tomorrow. He did sleep in later than me; so he should be fine. I worry about him a lot at his new job. I hope he doesn't hurt himself and I hope the hours go down like they are normally. He said they've been having problems with the guys behind them; because they keep wanting to do things differently which screws up the line. This job is going to help us get out of the hole and keep us both from freaking out about money for the next few months. It's almost October, we have windows on the line; we haven't paid for them yet, we haven't even set up the heating. So October, we'll be buttoning up the house. Hopefully we'll get that going so we don't have to freak out about it at the last minute.
I had a great weekend. Friday, right when I was at my worst point Nicole called me back. I was feeling quite lonely Friday although there were a lot of kids around. I tend to be more lonely with more people around that I'm not able to share feelings with. It probably has a lot to do with being an only child. John had left and went out to eat with Paul and Joe didn't know what to do for the night.
So she called me back. I met Nicole through OKCupid. She messaged me and noted how much we had in common. We emailed pages of emails to eachother and just recently in the past month or so we've finally gotten to hang out. We've both been so busy with our work and relationships we hadn't had much time to spend with eachother. Although we still have not hung out alone, Friday by far was the best time I was able to have with her. She came over and we rode the little dirt bike and started the bonfire. She actually started it with the flame thrower, it was awesome. We had a margaritta and a shot of liquer and walked to the train tracks to watch the train go by. I grabbed her hand, this is something I do to everyone in the dark on my property. But this was the beginning of a lot of affection that we were able to show eachother. We had fun just watching people ride bikes and be silly and having a few drinks here and there. I felt quite drunk at one point. We sat out on the front of the house and watched people ride dirt bikes and 4 wheelers. I put my arm around her, she put her hand on my thigh. The simple way we touched eachother was not just a touch, it was like I knew that she liked me by the way she touched me. You know that feeling? It wasn't anything sterile, it was meaningful and to make it even better... it was with a woman. I know this shouldn't really matter, but I've had trouble all my life being accepted by women for who I am. And there is a beautiful woman, whom I respect and have a lot in common with, showing me acceptance in a form other than that can be expressed verbally. I was high from this and still am.
We then sat on the couch with John and Joe and watched Harvey Birdman. She put her head on my shoulder and we held hands. John was being really cute and putting his arm around me and trying to touch our hands. It was really sweet. We were dozing on and off and Joe was being really cute, we should have made more room for him on the couch :)
Then, Nicole got a really bad headache which turned into a migrane. She got up kinda fast and was getting something out of her purse. She looked distraught. I thought I did something wrong at first; but as she was explaining it to Joe I found out she normally had migranes. Joe offered her our bed to lie down in until her medicine kicked in. I tucked her in and made sure no light was coming in and put some covers on her. I layed down next to her and we talked a bit about her migranes. I learned that if she drinks/doesn't eat right and has a stressful day, that it happens. I lightly touched her forhead and she brushed my hand softly. She eventually rolled to her side and I spooned her. I kissed the back of her neck and she kissed my hand and we talked about how nice this was. I put my arm around her waist, she intwined her fingers in my hands and moved as close as she could to me. I remember earlier that she said there was nothing like the touch of a woman. I knew what she meant at that point.
We planned on getting back up when she started to feel better; but she fell asleep in my arms. I stayed awake until I could hear her breathing the most calmly. We woke up in the same position at about 7am. We both used the restroom and then layed down again. She said something like, well I better get going. I hugged her and we layed there again for awhile and talked. I told her it was nice that we could be affectionate and the next morning still be able to. When she was about to leave I hugged her again and kissed her neck. She then kissed my cheek and I walked her to the kitchen.
I sent her a text message last night while I was in chicago. I told her I was thinking of her and that she was really awesome. She messaged me back later that night and said "awww, thanks. I'm thinking of you too, last night was great". :)
yay!
I think this is the beginning of something very awesome. She told me once via email that it takes her a lot longer to warm up to guys. I think that she likes both me and Joe, but it'll take longer for her to get close to Joe in an affectionate manor. Joe also takes a lot of time to become affectionate, because he's very afraid of making someone uncomfortable. I am too; but somehow I felt the vibe... Nicole is so awesome! I can easily see her becoming a part of our lives after Friday.
Saturday I went to Chicago. It was uber awesome. We ate a Chicago Diner, awesome practically all vegan food and went to Nate and Mina's apartment. It was so great! I wanted to stay all night; but I was feeling quite poopy. I even had 3 people begging me to stay and cuddle with them all night, but I really wanted to get home. I am on my period and I missed John. It seems like him and I need to make another date night; cause the last one... was kinda ruined by unexpected events. It's still totally awesome that I get to see him every day now and cuddle with him :)
Ohhhh, life is good. I just need a secretary to do my homework and dishes and clean and make lunch for me.
I love you all and thanks for listening.