need someone to talk to
some days I just need someone to talk to. Ali is in europe. Mel never answers phones. all my other friends just aren't all that talkable I suppose. tonight I think I might go to the bar with hamdi then I can talk. I almost talked to chris the other day I came this close (-------).
I mean we talk but not about anything important. he is truly the definition of ignorance is bliss. He would sit on the couch with food and video games the rest of his life if he could. he knows nothing of politics, art, or apparently women. What am I doing with this life! I ask myself constantly how this came to be. soon I will be 21. I have been waiting on this birthday for years. and now that it approaches im slightly terrified. I don't have many friends. I always pictured going out with a bunch of people and being so happy and a bit drunk. now I see that I will go out to dinner with my family and if I am lucky maybe a friend will go out to the bar with me. I don't understand! at work I am popular and every loves me. I have guys make passes at me all the time. in real life I don't know how to meet new people so im screwed. how do you make friends!!? everyone my age seems to be away at college parying while I am here in my home sulking and doing chores. is karma striking back? did I do that much wrong?
I mean we talk but not about anything important. he is truly the definition of ignorance is bliss. He would sit on the couch with food and video games the rest of his life if he could. he knows nothing of politics, art, or apparently women. What am I doing with this life! I ask myself constantly how this came to be. soon I will be 21. I have been waiting on this birthday for years. and now that it approaches im slightly terrified. I don't have many friends. I always pictured going out with a bunch of people and being so happy and a bit drunk. now I see that I will go out to dinner with my family and if I am lucky maybe a friend will go out to the bar with me. I don't understand! at work I am popular and every loves me. I have guys make passes at me all the time. in real life I don't know how to meet new people so im screwed. how do you make friends!!? everyone my age seems to be away at college parying while I am here in my home sulking and doing chores. is karma striking back? did I do that much wrong?