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chris and I are on a slippery slope to awful relationship hell. he is a constant douche. never says anything nice unless he needs to "get some". UGH! Why didn't I see this coming. Why is he such a sore losing, debbie downer-ish, sexist, pig, whore! dufhsonfpownfownc
had to go to his family's house for christmas. sucked. Couldnt breathe because he has dogs. first christmas away from home. luckly my mom had a huge christmas for me today...of course he had to come and ruin it. fuck.
I wonder all the time lately what life would have been like if I had chosen a different path. What if I would have dated this or that guy? what if I had gone to school for a science related major? What if I had advanced on certain opportunities instead of shunning them? too many regrets. too many mistakes.
sorry for the miss-spelling. I am tired and sad and angry. again. cried for over an hour the other night. mel was the only thing that made me stop. he finally came out and just made me start again. douche bag. He can't ever have a serious talk in person. only in text. that there shows that there is something wrong.
and he wonders why the hell I am not in "the mood" fuck him.
I want a better life.
had to go to his family's house for christmas. sucked. Couldnt breathe because he has dogs. first christmas away from home. luckly my mom had a huge christmas for me today...of course he had to come and ruin it. fuck.
I wonder all the time lately what life would have been like if I had chosen a different path. What if I would have dated this or that guy? what if I had gone to school for a science related major? What if I had advanced on certain opportunities instead of shunning them? too many regrets. too many mistakes.
sorry for the miss-spelling. I am tired and sad and angry. again. cried for over an hour the other night. mel was the only thing that made me stop. he finally came out and just made me start again. douche bag. He can't ever have a serious talk in person. only in text. that there shows that there is something wrong.
and he wonders why the hell I am not in "the mood" fuck him.
I want a better life.