hopeless
I am not happy anymore. Im out of work, There are no friends here, my family sucks, and worst of all chris has pretty much gone into hibernation. He hardly pays attention to me, has never done anything romantic for me, and the one gift ive ever recieved from him was a tea pot. Now don't get me wrong I know guys dont get hints and you shouldnt expect them to do this kind of stuff on their own...but I have told him! I said out right you never do anything romantic or surprise me with anything! I cook, clean, surprise, buy presents for him all the time. It's not fair. Life isent fair but jesus christ things were looking good for a while there! I find out if I got the hello cupcake job tomorrow. I really really need it. my sister wouldn't stop being a bitch to me last night about how im out of a job and should have taken the restaurant eve one. Im so close to socking her in the face. I miss philly and my friends, I miss having a boyfriend who cared about me, I miss my family being crazy and fun not so depressed. OH and I have to make a cake for brad today. Love him to death but I just made two thanksgivings worth of desserts and now another cake! this shit costs money that I just don't have right now. stupid family. well im off to frost a cake, listen to the new dashboard cd I downloaded, and find my zen.