running on empty
I got so upset yesterday I had another panic attack. this is the second one Ive had this month...second one ever. Its scary so im gonna try to slow it down and stop freaking! I ended up calling my sister and balling to her on the phone which is weird because not only do I not cry a lot, I don't cry to my sister! She made me feel so much better and then Justin took me out to dinner. It was nice getting a reality check. I get so sucked up into my college world it sucks. I just want to go home at this point and get away from stupid classes that are rotting my brain (history of food in America!?! really??) and away from dumb high school dramas! Not to mention I hate my job like crazy! They promise so much and then I get nothing. I was thinking I would be working the production part of it by now, nope. I was told I wouldn't have to work with Kieren anymore, nope. sigh...not to mention I feel like this whole degree is a joke and I should have done something more with my life! I was smart in high school i could have gone off and been a teacher or something useful but instead im makeing cakes and cookies all day.