Only God Can Judge Me!
Why is it that you can't be there for me...Just be happy for me...I never once called anyone you were with names or taked about them and I was always there for you through all the bull shit you put us through...Relationships with friends or anykind have ups and downs you fight but you don't just give up on them...I'm not gonna turn out like that...47 years old with no friends and no family living with your 3 cats a dog and your daughter who is resenting you more and more each day...I don't want to be like that...I don't want to be scared to get close to someone because I might get hurt...Thats what Life is about and yeah I'm scared but I'm not gonna hide...I just want to say your a fucking coward and If anyone is a fuck up in my life its me...I have no problem saying that and I do cause most of the shit that goes wrong in my life...But I'm trying to change, Don't judge me...YOUR NOT ALLOWED TO!!! NO ONE CAN!!! I wish I could get out of this hole I'm in...hard work, alot of hard work!