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*yawns* mmm...it's been awhile since i've only gotten two hours of sleep in a night. yay... sunday was pretty kickass...got to see my megan! mhmm...and terri! clubbing was amazing minus the getting mauled every now and then, but it was worth it to go and be there with my friends. had yesterday off, so i took megan shopping for her birthday, and then last night matt and i went out to dinner at Famous Dave's. Brian Louzon was my server! ah, i missed him! he's engaged and getting married in a month! how time passes...he was telling me about how he proposed to his girlfriend and i was just like awe, i wish someone could propose to me like that!
anyways... dinner was pretty good, had a few awkward silences, but it went well enough. then we ended back at his house watching Saw. all i have to say about the movie is that it is seriously fucked up. wow. but yeah. we put in a second movie and then we started cuddling. i didn't realize how much i missed cuddling with guys. *sigh* i found out last night that we had both been single for an extremely long time, me a year and a half(we're forgetting the whole david fiasco) and him two years. it was so nice to just lay there in his arms while we watched the movie. i havent been that at peace in so long. i just wanted to fall asleep like that. i almost did, actually. lol.
the only thing that i regret about last night though are the realizations that hit me. he's such a great guy, he really is, and he's one of the few guys i've met in the past two years that really is worth the time to date and get to know. but i realized that what's going on between us is quickly headed towards something more, and as much as i want it, i can't be fair to myself or to him by continueing there. he is a good guy, and he's worth the time and effort of a relationship, but once i get my second job, i wont have time for myself, let alone someone else. it hurts to say that, but it's true. two jobs make it a bit difficult to get anywhere with a relationship. *sigh* that, and something is telling me not to get into a relationship with him, and i've learned that my intuition is seldom wrong.
anyways, i have the day off of work, somehow, and an interview at 4:30 at old navy. wish me luck and give me a call if you want.
anyways... dinner was pretty good, had a few awkward silences, but it went well enough. then we ended back at his house watching Saw. all i have to say about the movie is that it is seriously fucked up. wow. but yeah. we put in a second movie and then we started cuddling. i didn't realize how much i missed cuddling with guys. *sigh* i found out last night that we had both been single for an extremely long time, me a year and a half(we're forgetting the whole david fiasco) and him two years. it was so nice to just lay there in his arms while we watched the movie. i havent been that at peace in so long. i just wanted to fall asleep like that. i almost did, actually. lol.
the only thing that i regret about last night though are the realizations that hit me. he's such a great guy, he really is, and he's one of the few guys i've met in the past two years that really is worth the time to date and get to know. but i realized that what's going on between us is quickly headed towards something more, and as much as i want it, i can't be fair to myself or to him by continueing there. he is a good guy, and he's worth the time and effort of a relationship, but once i get my second job, i wont have time for myself, let alone someone else. it hurts to say that, but it's true. two jobs make it a bit difficult to get anywhere with a relationship. *sigh* that, and something is telling me not to get into a relationship with him, and i've learned that my intuition is seldom wrong.
anyways, i have the day off of work, somehow, and an interview at 4:30 at old navy. wish me luck and give me a call if you want.