Tabula Rasa
Okay, I've FINALLY watched the ep, and since you all prepared me for it, I didn't cry at all. Or it's just that my hormones are back under control, therefore no waterworks. Also, I COMPLETELY APOLOGIZE FOR MY FREAKOUT OVER GILES/ANYA! OMG THEY MAKE THE CUTEST MARRIED COUPLE EVER! GILES WITH HIS VANITY! ANYA WITH HER VULNERABILITY AND HER PROPENSITY TO HIT HER MEN WITH RANDOM OBJECTS! THEIR BICKERING!!! OMG SO ADORABLE! I AM SORRY I EVER DOUBTED THE POWER OF THEIR HILARIOUSNESS! Also, the Giles/Spike moment where they tried to hug, SO BEAUTIFUL! Hee. Willow needed a wakeup call, so I completely approve of Tara leaving her. Giles, on the other hand, is just being an idiot. Hmph. I understand his reasons, but... come on, SHE SAID SHE'D TRY HARDER! SHE'D DO ANYTHING TO KEEP YOU IN HER LIFE, GILES! YOU IDIOT! In season 4 he was all depressed because she ignored him, and now he's all depressed because she depends on him too much. What the hell, man? All he's teaching her is that the people she loves most will ALWAYS leave her. Oh god, the montage at the end with Giles and his angsty face and Buffy looking emotionally dead at the bar and Tara leaving but not wanting to and Willow crying and GILES FIGHTING HIS TEARS and the song being all sadly romantic and the most lovey moments being played over the Giles/Buffy bits and then the song gets defiant and Buffy goes and plays with Spike's heart because it makes her forget about the pain that Giles is causing her AND IT'S ALL SO MESSED UP! DAMN IT, GILES! YOU IDIOT! YOU ADORABLE, SWEET, WELL-INTENTIONED IDIOT! *huff*
Before I forget, I just want to say MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!! I hope you get lots of goodies and have a stress-free day. My mom has to work tomorrow (all day, then she's on call all night) *cries* so I'm in charge of the whole shindig. I MADE CAKE! THAT'S MOTHERLY, RIGHT? And my brother will help me with the lasagna (more like I'll get stuff out for him and he'll do everything else). I can do the appetizers though. I'm good with appetizers. Because they come in a box. But I already got all the presents and wrapped them and arranged them under the tree and whatnot. I even stuffed my nephew's stocking, which, by the way, is huge and so filled that it can't even stay up on the mantle. My stocking is empty. *sniff* I'll just have to throw a candy bar in it and act like I got something special so I can annoy my nephew. Oh yes. No, no, it's Christmas, I'll refrain from annoying him. Maybe.
Anywho, I saw this meme yesterday, and it was just shouting my name. Really, it was:
[1] - List your top 10 celebrity crushes.
[2] - Put all of them IN ORDER of your lust for them. (10 to 1, 1 being your number one fixation)
[3] - Say which movie/show/thing it was that hooked you.
[4] - Supply photos for said people.
As you probably know by now (especially those of you who have been with me since my Ed Helms obsession), I go through very intense obsessions just about every 6 months. I am basically a slut when it comes to imaginary boyfriends.
10. Steve Carell
I've loved him since his days on The Daily Show, I was a regular watcher of The Office by season 2, but for some reason full-on obsession didn't hit until the summer after season 3. I have no idea why. I think because he was doing lots of publicity for Evan Almighty and I was rewatching my season 2 DVDs out of nostalgia? I don't know. It just kind of hit me out of nowhere and we had this big whirlwind romance that lasted all of two months because Ed Helms swooped in and stole my heart right out of his hands.
9. Jackie Chan
This man is simply a genius when it comes to physical comedy. He will always be the greatest martial artist for me. He makes his fight scenes so fun to watch and it's like a live action cartoon, and he always uses his environment in the most clever ways possible. I fell in love after Rush Hour. Watched it a billion times and thought he was the sexiest man ever. I... I don't anymore, but I still love him like crazy. Oh, by the way, Legend of Drunken Master definitely contains his most impressive fights. Either that or Who Am I?
8. Chow Yun-Fat
He's just the definition of cool. He's like the Chinese version of Robert DeNiro, only much more suave. In fact, he's kind of a mixture between DeNiro, James Bond, and Clint Eastwood. He is one badass mofo who likes to do double gun scenes that make me swoon. Oddly enough, the movie that made me fall in love with him was Anna and the King, wherein he proves how wonderful he is as an actor and I had NO IDEA that he was this big badass action star in Hong Kong. So, Anna and the King made me say, "Wow, that guy is gorgeous." And then I saw The Replacement Killers on TV and said, "Holy crap that guy is badass sexy." Then I started buying up every single one of his films. The Killer is my favorite. He's suave, there's lots of gayness in it, and the gun fights are wicked badass and SO beautifully shot.
7. Will Ferrell
This one was kind of a slow burn. I started watching SNL regularly after the first Garth Brooks episode, and Will Ferrell was instantly my favorite. The more eps I watched, the more in love with him I became, and then eventually Comedy Central started showing the reruns from his early years, so I was watching him every single day and he just became an addiction. The cheerleader, the cowbell, any time he kissed Chris Kattan, the music teacher, GEORGE W!!! I watched him every day for YEARS. I memorized just about all his sketches because the reruns would go through their course and start over again and I would tape all of his sketches, so... yeah, I was in love. And then I got reobsessed after Anchorman. And then I got reobsessed again after Talladega Nights. And then yet again after Blades of Glory. So, he's my most common reemerging obsession. Oh, it all started when I was 13, I think. Either 12 or 13.
6. Colin Firth
My namesake. &hearts I was hugely into him a couple years ago. Saw him on Bridget Jones' Diary, thought he was a sexy beast, saw him in Pride and Prejudice, became obsessed with a ferocious intensity. I thought he was THE perfect man. He's still pretty much my fairytale hero in Firthgal Fantasy Land. Plus, he's actually an extremely brilliant actor. I know he's mostly known for his leading man roles, but he's so much more than that. I love his leading man roles though. They make me melt.
5. Robert DeNiro
In all honesty, it was Meet the Parents that got me. I know that's uncool for a DeNiro fan, but you know what? It's the truth. I had been watching him my whole life in various films, so his face was always a familiar thing for me, but he didn't really peak my interest until he did a silly family comedy (because that's what I was into in my frilly teenage years). He was the funniest thing about that film for me, and I just... gah, I loved him. So I went to the movie store and rented every single film they had of him (you know, back in the dark ages when all I had was a VCR, so I was relegated to worn out VHS tapes). I probably hit obsession level after GoodFellas, because I absolutely had to own everything he was in from that point on. I even bought a DVD player for him. Oh yes. Showtime was my first DVD. Ronin was my second. Analyze This and Men of Honor came soon after. And Taxi Driver, good lord did I watch that film a lot. DeNiro is simply the best. Even in crap films like The Fan he woos me with his awesomeness. &hearts
4. Ed Helms
I've often said that Ed Helms was meant for me, and I still believe it. It scares me how compatible we could be together. He is so my TV husband. I'm not sure of the exact moment when the full-on obsession hit, but it was sometime during my Steve Carell obsessing (and I swiftly forgot about Steve and had eyes for Ed and Ed only). Anyway, I fell in love with him watching him as Andy on The Office. I always liked him (although in his first ep I wasn't quite sure what to think of him, but I thought he was funny), and eventually he just wore me down without me even knowing and BOOM! I was in mad, mad love. The singing probably did it. That and the fact that the character reminds me so much of myself. But Ed Helms himself (at least, his media persona) is everything I want in a man. He's hilarious, sweet, HE SINGS, he has a bluegrass band, he's ridiculously intelligent, and he's just an all around awesome guy. I love him.
3. Damian Lewis
Look at him holding that stool all sexy and stuff. He is cool, gorgeous, and absolutely hilarious. And kind of a dick when you look at some of the stuff he says (but a hilarious and sexy one!). I fell in love with him after about 2 minutes of watching Life. Possibly sooner. His eyes were so mesmerizing and he was so awesome and sweet and badass and GAAAAAAAH, I LOVE HIM! But what absolutely hooked me forever and ever was The Forsyte Saga. He is such a brilliant actor. He pretty much blows me away in anything. Well, except for Brides. He is so ridiculous in that movie. I'm pretty sure he knew how ridiculously stupid his character was and decided to play him for laughs, because I REALLY don't see how that film can be taken seriously. Anyway, this man is ridiculously talented, he doesn't take himself too seriously, and he's gorgeous to boot. I love him.
2. Garth Brooks
Had to do the double thumbs for jesshelga. So, this dude should probably be listed as #1, because he will always be my constant, but since he retired, my obsession isn't super huge like it used to be. But I buy anything and everything that Garth tells me to buy. I am his bitch. And I love him most when he's all sweaty and geeking out at how awesome his fans are (and we are totally awesome, by the way):
Even though he's a dweeb, he can also do sexy pretty well:
And cool:
Okay, okay, I'll stop with the pics. Anyway, I fell in love on my ninth birthday. My friend had given me The Chase and I was staring intensely at the cover for another album that another friend had gotten me (the album was Ropin' the Wind. I have no clue why I was looking at that while listening to the other), and the second Garth started belting out the intro to "We Shall Be Free", it was like some holy light slapped me in the face and said, "This is your reason for living." And as I stared at the cover (seriously, it was like I was hypnotized) I kept saying, "Oh, he's... he's ugly. So ugly. Right? Look at him," but that was all a cover because I feared they all saw this powerful love and devotion that I had developed for some guy in the amount of 3 seconds come over me and I was in that "boys are icky" stage even though I had been obsessing over celebrities for a good three years by then. Unfortunately, the tape got all eaten up in my tape player and I had a total freakout because the heavenly voice was gone and my friend got all scared and tried to fix it, but it couldn't be repaired. It was a very tragic moment for my nine-year-old self. So I threw in Ropin' the Wind and listened to it nonstop for months, and then my mom bought me In Pieces the day it came out because she knew I wanted it, and then I eventually bought everything that he had ever released, including that McDonald's one, which consisted of all songs that I already had. And I tend to remember distinct details about all events in my life related to Garth better than I remember anything else. This is sad, but true. I even remember that I went to the orthodontist on the day of his HBO Live in Central Park concert on Aug 7, 1997. And I had buffalo chicken fingers for dinner. What the what? I can't even remember what I had for dinner last night. But I can remember my dinner from 11 years ago. *sigh*
1. Anthony Head
Do I even need to explain? GUH! HE'S THE MOST GORGEOUS MAN IN EXISTENCE! SO BEAUTIFUL! Unlike the rest of the world, I did not discover this lovely man through Buffy the Vampire Slayer, but instead fell in love with him through Merlin, which is probably pretty weird considering the fact that he plays a not so lovable character, but he gives Uther so many layers that I just get why the character is the way he is. Too easily the character could have been played as a straight up villain, but Tony brings a certain vulnerability to the character that gives him this beautiful moral ambiguity, and even though you know he's kind of a sociopath, he makes you wonder what you'd do if you were in his place. Oooh, I love Uther. So very much. He's tortured and self-centered and he has a wicked temper and he loves Arthur and Morgana so much and he wants to do the right thing and he always tries desperately to convince himself that he's doing the right thing, but he knows he's not, and he just wants to be a good king. HIS MANPAIN MAKES HIM GET DRUNK A LOT! WHICH I LOVE! Also, his eagerness to please Morgana pleases me.
BONUS PIC! OMG I LOVE HIM! HE GIGGLES! ADORABLY! Oh, and I just have to add, I was watching the behind the scenes featurette of the musical ep of Buffy, and I love that he's always just there hanging out in a sexy manner and laughing and the younger cast members are always hugging him or sitting on him or something and he truly enjoys being around them and it just warms my heart like crazy that he's not a pompous jerk who thinks he's above the younguns.
Before I forget, I just want to say MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!! I hope you get lots of goodies and have a stress-free day. My mom has to work tomorrow (all day, then she's on call all night) *cries* so I'm in charge of the whole shindig. I MADE CAKE! THAT'S MOTHERLY, RIGHT? And my brother will help me with the lasagna (more like I'll get stuff out for him and he'll do everything else). I can do the appetizers though. I'm good with appetizers. Because they come in a box. But I already got all the presents and wrapped them and arranged them under the tree and whatnot. I even stuffed my nephew's stocking, which, by the way, is huge and so filled that it can't even stay up on the mantle. My stocking is empty. *sniff* I'll just have to throw a candy bar in it and act like I got something special so I can annoy my nephew. Oh yes. No, no, it's Christmas, I'll refrain from annoying him. Maybe.
Anywho, I saw this meme yesterday, and it was just shouting my name. Really, it was:
[1] - List your top 10 celebrity crushes.
[2] - Put all of them IN ORDER of your lust for them. (10 to 1, 1 being your number one fixation)
[3] - Say which movie/show/thing it was that hooked you.
[4] - Supply photos for said people.
As you probably know by now (especially those of you who have been with me since my Ed Helms obsession), I go through very intense obsessions just about every 6 months. I am basically a slut when it comes to imaginary boyfriends.
10. Steve Carell
I've loved him since his days on The Daily Show, I was a regular watcher of The Office by season 2, but for some reason full-on obsession didn't hit until the summer after season 3. I have no idea why. I think because he was doing lots of publicity for Evan Almighty and I was rewatching my season 2 DVDs out of nostalgia? I don't know. It just kind of hit me out of nowhere and we had this big whirlwind romance that lasted all of two months because Ed Helms swooped in and stole my heart right out of his hands.
9. Jackie Chan
This man is simply a genius when it comes to physical comedy. He will always be the greatest martial artist for me. He makes his fight scenes so fun to watch and it's like a live action cartoon, and he always uses his environment in the most clever ways possible. I fell in love after Rush Hour. Watched it a billion times and thought he was the sexiest man ever. I... I don't anymore, but I still love him like crazy. Oh, by the way, Legend of Drunken Master definitely contains his most impressive fights. Either that or Who Am I?
8. Chow Yun-Fat
He's just the definition of cool. He's like the Chinese version of Robert DeNiro, only much more suave. In fact, he's kind of a mixture between DeNiro, James Bond, and Clint Eastwood. He is one badass mofo who likes to do double gun scenes that make me swoon. Oddly enough, the movie that made me fall in love with him was Anna and the King, wherein he proves how wonderful he is as an actor and I had NO IDEA that he was this big badass action star in Hong Kong. So, Anna and the King made me say, "Wow, that guy is gorgeous." And then I saw The Replacement Killers on TV and said, "Holy crap that guy is badass sexy." Then I started buying up every single one of his films. The Killer is my favorite. He's suave, there's lots of gayness in it, and the gun fights are wicked badass and SO beautifully shot.
7. Will Ferrell
This one was kind of a slow burn. I started watching SNL regularly after the first Garth Brooks episode, and Will Ferrell was instantly my favorite. The more eps I watched, the more in love with him I became, and then eventually Comedy Central started showing the reruns from his early years, so I was watching him every single day and he just became an addiction. The cheerleader, the cowbell, any time he kissed Chris Kattan, the music teacher, GEORGE W!!! I watched him every day for YEARS. I memorized just about all his sketches because the reruns would go through their course and start over again and I would tape all of his sketches, so... yeah, I was in love. And then I got reobsessed after Anchorman. And then I got reobsessed again after Talladega Nights. And then yet again after Blades of Glory. So, he's my most common reemerging obsession. Oh, it all started when I was 13, I think. Either 12 or 13.
6. Colin Firth
My namesake. &hearts I was hugely into him a couple years ago. Saw him on Bridget Jones' Diary, thought he was a sexy beast, saw him in Pride and Prejudice, became obsessed with a ferocious intensity. I thought he was THE perfect man. He's still pretty much my fairytale hero in Firthgal Fantasy Land. Plus, he's actually an extremely brilliant actor. I know he's mostly known for his leading man roles, but he's so much more than that. I love his leading man roles though. They make me melt.
5. Robert DeNiro
In all honesty, it was Meet the Parents that got me. I know that's uncool for a DeNiro fan, but you know what? It's the truth. I had been watching him my whole life in various films, so his face was always a familiar thing for me, but he didn't really peak my interest until he did a silly family comedy (because that's what I was into in my frilly teenage years). He was the funniest thing about that film for me, and I just... gah, I loved him. So I went to the movie store and rented every single film they had of him (you know, back in the dark ages when all I had was a VCR, so I was relegated to worn out VHS tapes). I probably hit obsession level after GoodFellas, because I absolutely had to own everything he was in from that point on. I even bought a DVD player for him. Oh yes. Showtime was my first DVD. Ronin was my second. Analyze This and Men of Honor came soon after. And Taxi Driver, good lord did I watch that film a lot. DeNiro is simply the best. Even in crap films like The Fan he woos me with his awesomeness. &hearts
4. Ed Helms
I've often said that Ed Helms was meant for me, and I still believe it. It scares me how compatible we could be together. He is so my TV husband. I'm not sure of the exact moment when the full-on obsession hit, but it was sometime during my Steve Carell obsessing (and I swiftly forgot about Steve and had eyes for Ed and Ed only). Anyway, I fell in love with him watching him as Andy on The Office. I always liked him (although in his first ep I wasn't quite sure what to think of him, but I thought he was funny), and eventually he just wore me down without me even knowing and BOOM! I was in mad, mad love. The singing probably did it. That and the fact that the character reminds me so much of myself. But Ed Helms himself (at least, his media persona) is everything I want in a man. He's hilarious, sweet, HE SINGS, he has a bluegrass band, he's ridiculously intelligent, and he's just an all around awesome guy. I love him.
3. Damian Lewis
Look at him holding that stool all sexy and stuff. He is cool, gorgeous, and absolutely hilarious. And kind of a dick when you look at some of the stuff he says (but a hilarious and sexy one!). I fell in love with him after about 2 minutes of watching Life. Possibly sooner. His eyes were so mesmerizing and he was so awesome and sweet and badass and GAAAAAAAH, I LOVE HIM! But what absolutely hooked me forever and ever was The Forsyte Saga. He is such a brilliant actor. He pretty much blows me away in anything. Well, except for Brides. He is so ridiculous in that movie. I'm pretty sure he knew how ridiculously stupid his character was and decided to play him for laughs, because I REALLY don't see how that film can be taken seriously. Anyway, this man is ridiculously talented, he doesn't take himself too seriously, and he's gorgeous to boot. I love him.
2. Garth Brooks
Had to do the double thumbs for jesshelga. So, this dude should probably be listed as #1, because he will always be my constant, but since he retired, my obsession isn't super huge like it used to be. But I buy anything and everything that Garth tells me to buy. I am his bitch. And I love him most when he's all sweaty and geeking out at how awesome his fans are (and we are totally awesome, by the way):
Even though he's a dweeb, he can also do sexy pretty well:
And cool:
Okay, okay, I'll stop with the pics. Anyway, I fell in love on my ninth birthday. My friend had given me The Chase and I was staring intensely at the cover for another album that another friend had gotten me (the album was Ropin' the Wind. I have no clue why I was looking at that while listening to the other), and the second Garth started belting out the intro to "We Shall Be Free", it was like some holy light slapped me in the face and said, "This is your reason for living." And as I stared at the cover (seriously, it was like I was hypnotized) I kept saying, "Oh, he's... he's ugly. So ugly. Right? Look at him," but that was all a cover because I feared they all saw this powerful love and devotion that I had developed for some guy in the amount of 3 seconds come over me and I was in that "boys are icky" stage even though I had been obsessing over celebrities for a good three years by then. Unfortunately, the tape got all eaten up in my tape player and I had a total freakout because the heavenly voice was gone and my friend got all scared and tried to fix it, but it couldn't be repaired. It was a very tragic moment for my nine-year-old self. So I threw in Ropin' the Wind and listened to it nonstop for months, and then my mom bought me In Pieces the day it came out because she knew I wanted it, and then I eventually bought everything that he had ever released, including that McDonald's one, which consisted of all songs that I already had. And I tend to remember distinct details about all events in my life related to Garth better than I remember anything else. This is sad, but true. I even remember that I went to the orthodontist on the day of his HBO Live in Central Park concert on Aug 7, 1997. And I had buffalo chicken fingers for dinner. What the what? I can't even remember what I had for dinner last night. But I can remember my dinner from 11 years ago. *sigh*
1. Anthony Head
Do I even need to explain? GUH! HE'S THE MOST GORGEOUS MAN IN EXISTENCE! SO BEAUTIFUL! Unlike the rest of the world, I did not discover this lovely man through Buffy the Vampire Slayer, but instead fell in love with him through Merlin, which is probably pretty weird considering the fact that he plays a not so lovable character, but he gives Uther so many layers that I just get why the character is the way he is. Too easily the character could have been played as a straight up villain, but Tony brings a certain vulnerability to the character that gives him this beautiful moral ambiguity, and even though you know he's kind of a sociopath, he makes you wonder what you'd do if you were in his place. Oooh, I love Uther. So very much. He's tortured and self-centered and he has a wicked temper and he loves Arthur and Morgana so much and he wants to do the right thing and he always tries desperately to convince himself that he's doing the right thing, but he knows he's not, and he just wants to be a good king. HIS MANPAIN MAKES HIM GET DRUNK A LOT! WHICH I LOVE! Also, his eagerness to please Morgana pleases me.
BONUS PIC! OMG I LOVE HIM! HE GIGGLES! ADORABLY! Oh, and I just have to add, I was watching the behind the scenes featurette of the musical ep of Buffy, and I love that he's always just there hanging out in a sexy manner and laughing and the younger cast members are always hugging him or sitting on him or something and he truly enjoys being around them and it just warms my heart like crazy that he's not a pompous jerk who thinks he's above the younguns.