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happy new year.... sorry to crash it down and make it emo but i havent written in here in a long ass time...... yay so ummm happy new year to me.... im chillin at home alone tonight... thats life i guess.... well its because i chose to..... i wanted to go out and get stoned but... its best if i dont... ive got many things to change and well im gonna try to quit all the bads in my life... and im not even saying this as a resolution... ive just wanted to clean up my life... starting with getting rid of the bad things in life... ok so i'll get rid of smoking... drinking... well i havent done that in a really long time so i dont even have to worry about that.... i mean i just never wanna drinkl... thats a good thing.... ummmm friends.... right now im distancing myself from a few of them.... i need to be by myself for a while... i need to find my internal happyness before i can put up w/ other peoples shit... so if i dont call or dont wanna talk on the phone or dont wanna hang out... well that means i just dont wanna deal with your shit or i am trying to have some time to myself.... and well i guess i'll also use this time to get closer to those others that i dont know as well... i wish i could just step out for a while and live life on the other side. Ummm yeh thats about it... i mean not a whol lot is new... Tommy's outa town and well that sux... i dont really hang out w/ n e one else... so i go to the band room and chill there.... ummm and well its just layin back... not too close to n e one so no one really talks to me... thats life i guess.... so i guess its back to the quiet me time... bye