MEN ARE BASTARDS
went on my first lunch date today, with a guy i have been talking too for around 3 weeks or so.
i don't drive and i'm a single mum of a gorgeous daughter under a year,
yet i travelled 40 mins to meet him.
i do not rate myself as beautiful and i am a little overweight, yet this man has made me feel
like i am repulsive. mind you he is obese and not attractive himself.
he could barely stand to look at me the entire 30 mins we were in each others company. he offered for
me to eat, i had a muffin, yet he had nothing. kept asking me what time my lift was picking me up,
how long my daughter would sleep for - mum was minding her, and barely said a dozen words to me.
i tried to have a conversation with him, asking him questions, but he was very standoffish. before the
date he said lunch and a stroll. no lunch, no stroll. faked a phone call from his mum, saying that his dog -
he is going blind (so he says, who knows now) is vomiting and he has to go.
he left me in tears. what little confidence i had in myself, which wasn't much to begin with mind, is totally
gone now. i feel like an unlovabe troll.
i don't drive and i'm a single mum of a gorgeous daughter under a year,
yet i travelled 40 mins to meet him.
i do not rate myself as beautiful and i am a little overweight, yet this man has made me feel
like i am repulsive. mind you he is obese and not attractive himself.
he could barely stand to look at me the entire 30 mins we were in each others company. he offered for
me to eat, i had a muffin, yet he had nothing. kept asking me what time my lift was picking me up,
how long my daughter would sleep for - mum was minding her, and barely said a dozen words to me.
i tried to have a conversation with him, asking him questions, but he was very standoffish. before the
date he said lunch and a stroll. no lunch, no stroll. faked a phone call from his mum, saying that his dog -
he is going blind (so he says, who knows now) is vomiting and he has to go.
he left me in tears. what little confidence i had in myself, which wasn't much to begin with mind, is totally
gone now. i feel like an unlovabe troll.