Hmm.
Reading a lot of dolly debate threads in DoA makes me depressed. It is the same reason why I cannot seem to get into this community fully. I am starting to realize that I am different from most. I like BJDs because they are pretty. I like the hobby even more because of the chance to buy beautiful clothing you can never find in real life. The chance to be able to buy wigs that you can never buy in real life. The chance to be able to get whatever kind of make-up you want perfectly done on your girl/boy.
Everything is just made so damn well that it is hard for me to part with this obsession.
I admit it. T_T I don't like the dolls as much as the average person but I like what comes with it. Don't get me wrong though. I want to be able to bond to them and create something for them, but clearly I am not like most owners. I keep wondering how can I make myself enjoy this hobby more other than the shallowness of my reason of being in it? I feel bad about it but if you strip it down to the core, it doesn't matter what your reason is for being in the hobby because in the end, all of us pay a high price to be able to have them. Thus, making this hobby so damn materialistic to begin with. I know I might be alone on this one but as a hobby it should never take over anyone's life to this degree. And yet, I have let it. =_=
I want to do a make-over for myself and turn this hobby into what it should be : a hobby.
Not stress myself over doll items, friends, purchases, etc. I no longer have to will to keep worrying about what someone has said about me or to me. How someone acts towards me or treats me. I am done with it. I am also done with the strange attachment to this hobby and I no longer want to be controlled by it. I want to be the "absolute" in this, not my dolls or their accessories.
Everything is just made so damn well that it is hard for me to part with this obsession.
I admit it. T_T I don't like the dolls as much as the average person but I like what comes with it. Don't get me wrong though. I want to be able to bond to them and create something for them, but clearly I am not like most owners. I keep wondering how can I make myself enjoy this hobby more other than the shallowness of my reason of being in it? I feel bad about it but if you strip it down to the core, it doesn't matter what your reason is for being in the hobby because in the end, all of us pay a high price to be able to have them. Thus, making this hobby so damn materialistic to begin with. I know I might be alone on this one but as a hobby it should never take over anyone's life to this degree. And yet, I have let it. =_=
I want to do a make-over for myself and turn this hobby into what it should be : a hobby.
Not stress myself over doll items, friends, purchases, etc. I no longer have to will to keep worrying about what someone has said about me or to me. How someone acts towards me or treats me. I am done with it. I am also done with the strange attachment to this hobby and I no longer want to be controlled by it. I want to be the "absolute" in this, not my dolls or their accessories.