I guess now is the
right time to talk and open up about this as I have not talked about it at all. Recently I decided to break most of my relationship with an old friend of mine in the hobby. I have not appeared to her on MSN anymore. Honestly, I am really sad about it and it took me a long time to finally do it. I have to admit that it is very lonely without her but there were too many issues regarding our relationship that I can no longer continue it. I don't think it was emotionally healthy for me anymore so I had to stop it. I miss our talks and our ravings about new doll things and the meets.
I had a long talk with my other friend who I have known even longer and we have fixed our issues. I guess this is the thing that keeps friendships going. The willingness from both parties to open up about troubles and fixing it. The only trouble I had with this one was that I am very insecure about myself and how she feels towards me but it is ok now. So I guess I got to continue one and not the other.
I feel happier and sad at the same time but I guess this is usually how it goes.
I am sorry it didn't work out between us. I will miss you.
I also need to stop looking at the volume of comments and favorites you receive because no matter what, there is a reason why you do get that much of them and I don't. I also need to stop focusing on the skill aspect of this hobby. I have lost something that I used to have and that was emotion in the photos. That is something that I had and no one else did (or they had a different idea of it).
I have to admit I have pride in my work as I have done a style that no one else really had done so in the doll community but is now so overused. It was not really hard to achieve as long as you have a prime lens with a low f-stop and a dslr so I shouldn't kid myself about it. Sometimes I regret sharing my info about my photography but it has helped improve the photos of people who have asked me for advice. It does have a price and my style was never the type to leave any strong impression on anyone so now I am behind the "times". I need to get back that artistic emotion I used to put in my photos and stop feeling so envious of people's amount of comments & faves that they consistently receive. I was doing fine to begin with and I shouldn't have changed it.
I had a long talk with my other friend who I have known even longer and we have fixed our issues. I guess this is the thing that keeps friendships going. The willingness from both parties to open up about troubles and fixing it. The only trouble I had with this one was that I am very insecure about myself and how she feels towards me but it is ok now. So I guess I got to continue one and not the other.
I feel happier and sad at the same time but I guess this is usually how it goes.
I am sorry it didn't work out between us. I will miss you.
I also need to stop looking at the volume of comments and favorites you receive because no matter what, there is a reason why you do get that much of them and I don't. I also need to stop focusing on the skill aspect of this hobby. I have lost something that I used to have and that was emotion in the photos. That is something that I had and no one else did (or they had a different idea of it).
I have to admit I have pride in my work as I have done a style that no one else really had done so in the doll community but is now so overused. It was not really hard to achieve as long as you have a prime lens with a low f-stop and a dslr so I shouldn't kid myself about it. Sometimes I regret sharing my info about my photography but it has helped improve the photos of people who have asked me for advice. It does have a price and my style was never the type to leave any strong impression on anyone so now I am behind the "times". I need to get back that artistic emotion I used to put in my photos and stop feeling so envious of people's amount of comments & faves that they consistently receive. I was doing fine to begin with and I shouldn't have changed it.