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driving back up here i had so much many thoughts going through my head, stuff that i wanted to write on here. now i am uninspired; i wish i had a tape recorder cause i spend a lot of time in the car.
this weekend was really fun. Interview went ok, good i think. Surfed at the pier by myself. It was the first time i had surfed in a while and i sucked, but it was nice. ate at breadcrumb with tyler and his dad, that was good i had never been there before. did some homework. played tennis with eva, justin, and tyler. I think we won one and they one once. I dont think i had anything to do with winning. Hung out and explored long beach with Amara at night. That was fun and probably the first time i had seen her for more than 10 minutes in the past 4 months or so. Saturday got up and went to eat with jodi and justin. That was nice; she is someone i wouldnt have expected to still be friends with after living away for 4 years, but i am glad that we are. her porfolio for graphic art is amazing. Was going to do homework for a while but ended up going surfing with justin, at newland. The waves were fun and the water was warm! Got out and went to merideth's b-day party. Good homemade sushi. That was pretty fun. Then, waited to go to nick and jasons birthday party in newport. I waited and had a hard time waiting so it was hard to ride slow and i ended up riding by myself down there, which was nice. The party was fun. I had waited for a couple of weeks for it and it was still fun despite the self-created-hype in my head. It was cool because there were a lot of friends from home there, friends from hs as well as many i had met since then. Thought about telling a girl i wanted to make out with her. Is that how it works, you just tell them? it seems to work for some, maybe im too picky for the types that that works on, but i was close to trying. It ended kind of early, and i went home and went to bed. And wondered why some girls dont break up with their bf's if their going to be so flirty and touchy. Oh well. Got up this morning and hit the road. I wanted to surf on the way up but it didn't happen for some reason. Now i have a ton of studying before my tests this week.
I miss home a lot. Is it still my home? It still feels like it. I want to live there this summer. Which makes me nervous, because the only job i have interviewed for is doing something that i can do but itd be a huge project that kindof scares me because what if i mess up. But if i do it correctly itd be something to be proud of and the company would be happy. I might not make as much money as working in sb but i think rent would be cheaper down there and i could spend free time with friends, which i guess isnt something you can buy. I dont really know what im supposed to be doing. I just want to be close to people i enjoy hanging out with instead of just wishing that i was, and living donw there would probably make for a fun summer. what about after summer and then after fall when i graduate? I dont know yet but when i think about it i get scared.
this weekend was really fun. Interview went ok, good i think. Surfed at the pier by myself. It was the first time i had surfed in a while and i sucked, but it was nice. ate at breadcrumb with tyler and his dad, that was good i had never been there before. did some homework. played tennis with eva, justin, and tyler. I think we won one and they one once. I dont think i had anything to do with winning. Hung out and explored long beach with Amara at night. That was fun and probably the first time i had seen her for more than 10 minutes in the past 4 months or so. Saturday got up and went to eat with jodi and justin. That was nice; she is someone i wouldnt have expected to still be friends with after living away for 4 years, but i am glad that we are. her porfolio for graphic art is amazing. Was going to do homework for a while but ended up going surfing with justin, at newland. The waves were fun and the water was warm! Got out and went to merideth's b-day party. Good homemade sushi. That was pretty fun. Then, waited to go to nick and jasons birthday party in newport. I waited and had a hard time waiting so it was hard to ride slow and i ended up riding by myself down there, which was nice. The party was fun. I had waited for a couple of weeks for it and it was still fun despite the self-created-hype in my head. It was cool because there were a lot of friends from home there, friends from hs as well as many i had met since then. Thought about telling a girl i wanted to make out with her. Is that how it works, you just tell them? it seems to work for some, maybe im too picky for the types that that works on, but i was close to trying. It ended kind of early, and i went home and went to bed. And wondered why some girls dont break up with their bf's if their going to be so flirty and touchy. Oh well. Got up this morning and hit the road. I wanted to surf on the way up but it didn't happen for some reason. Now i have a ton of studying before my tests this week.
I miss home a lot. Is it still my home? It still feels like it. I want to live there this summer. Which makes me nervous, because the only job i have interviewed for is doing something that i can do but itd be a huge project that kindof scares me because what if i mess up. But if i do it correctly itd be something to be proud of and the company would be happy. I might not make as much money as working in sb but i think rent would be cheaper down there and i could spend free time with friends, which i guess isnt something you can buy. I dont really know what im supposed to be doing. I just want to be close to people i enjoy hanging out with instead of just wishing that i was, and living donw there would probably make for a fun summer. what about after summer and then after fall when i graduate? I dont know yet but when i think about it i get scared.